We are being admitted for at least a 23 hour observation period. The half life of this med is super long and another kid, bigger and older than karl took 8 days to recover. I'm the worst mom.
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... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
32 comments:
This could happen to anyone. Kids get into things if you take your eyes off them for even a second and there is no way to constantly watch them.
Don't blame yourself. (((HUGS)))
Damn. I'm so sorry. You are not the worst Mom so pull away from that avenue of thought. Shit happens. And you cought this super fast and acted super fast. I hope the meds smoothly work out of his system and y'all can go home and get some rest. (((hugs))))
You're actually not the worst mom, you know. It could literally happen to ANYONE (and probably happens more than you realize). Besides, it's not like you fed him the pills...he took them by accident. My kids are CONSTANTLY picking things up from the floor and eating 'em. I have lead paint in my house (which I'm too poor to get removed), but I'm sure they've eaten paint chips that are lying around. But you know what? Their lead screens always come back low (1 or less). ad shit happens. But he'll be ok and never remember the incident (even if you will). And in many years from now, I'll bet you joke about it with him and say something like "well you're that way cuz you took drugs as a baby" (the way people say "it's cuz I dropped you on your head as a child"...same idea) I promise you WILL actually look back on this and laugh. He'll be ok with lots of hugs and kisses. (And so will you...)
Oh Nancy, I'm so sorry! Don't blame yourself, this really could have happened to anyone.
I hope you and he are both feeling better soon.
I hope you are all home soon. It's not your fault, it can happen to anyone. Hugs.
Oh Nancy! You're not the worst! Things happen, and with littles picking up everying in sight and putting straight to their mouth, this could've happened to anyone. In fact, my mom let one of the boys get her baby aspirin bottle to shake "like a rattle", and he opened it! He had pills in his hand when I looked over! It's not your fault. I'm thinking of you and sending prayers for Karl to get the meds out of his system as easy as possible. xoxoxox
Nancy, you are not the worst mom in the world. It could have happened to ANYONE.
Thinking of you and hope he recovers soon.
xxxx
I'm sorry this happened. Poor little Karl. But don't beat yourself up overthis. I could happen to anyone.
You are NOT a terrible Mom! This could happen to anyone.
I hope Karl gets better soon. At least he's being well looked after at the hospital. Keep us updated and I'll be sending positive thoughts your way.
Hugs to you, I can think of many moms that are WAY worse...trust me! It was an accident, and you have him in the right place.
Kira ate half of an ambien once off my bedside table! Talk about having a meltdown. I had it on the bedside table from the night before and never took it, she was running around my room and I turned and looked at her and saw she had something in her mouth...I found half the pill (10mg) on the floor at her feet and dug around her mouth until I got what I thought was the rest. I did not take her to the ER...was afraid they would take her away from me. I kept her awake for like 6 hours after that...it was the scariest 6 hours of my life.
Keep up posted on Karl please...
Nancy, you're an awesome mom. Anyone could have had this happen to them. Please don't beat yourself up. Hugs to you, Karl and your DH.
Nancy- you are an awesome mom- these things happen to everyone! It was an accident & you were able to notice it immediately which is wonderful. And doing everything right by calling poison control & getting him to the er.
I am praying for you all for a short stay and a quick recovery.
xoxoxoxo
You are an awesome mom, Nancy. This shit happens all the time. Praying that you guys can get home soon and get some much-needed rest.
First off, forgive yourself. You are no different from any other mom in terms of "good" or "bad." You took a statistical bullet.
Second, I'm hoping that Karl's observation period goes quickly and without incident. My best also to your husband and girls. I'm sure something like this shakes up everyone.
Holding you in my arms, Nancy. You are a GOOD mom who had some BAD luck. May GOOD luck follow in the coming hours.
XO
Holy crap, Nancy! I'm sorry I missed your posts. My thoughts are with little Karl and you are NOT a bad mom! A bad mom wouldn't have cared to take him in. I hope he recovers soon!
You are NOT the worst mom. This was a freak accident. Karl will be fine. The hospital staff will take great care of him. Be easy on yourself.
Oh crap! I am sorry Nancy!
Don't beat yourself up, accidents happen! I was just at Shiners burn unit because my little guy grabbed the iron and burnt himself. It happens so fast!
You are not a bad mom, this could happen to anyone. Hope y'all are home soon!!
Nancy, I'm pretty sure the worst mom (which you're not) wouldn't have noticed that he got them. You were right there and got him appropriate care immediately. Thinking of all of you right now!
HUGS!!!!
When my brother was 3 he got into a full bottle of tylenol while my mom was on the phone. My mom found him under the kitchen table with the bottle empty and just a few pills left on the floor. He proudly proclaimed that his headache was all gone. Shit happens and it happens all the time. Keeping you, Karl and the rest of your family in my thoughts.
You are not a bad mom! You're just facing a crappy situation. It could have happened to anyone!
Thinking healing thoughts and praying Karl is home soon. (((hugs)))
Ugh what a crappy situation. Shit happens though, try not to blame yourself. I hope Karl recovers quickly!
You are not a bad mom. This kind of stuff can happen to anyone. I hope Karl has a quick recovery.
Please update when you can, I hope Karl is doing better and he's on a road to recovery. (((HUGS)))
I imagine I would feel the same way but poison control exists for a reason: because we all make mistakes! Be gentle with yourself! Big hugs and a speedy recovery for Karl!
You're not the worst mom. Hope he recovers quickly and without any bad effects.
You are NOT the worst mom. Damn it - these things happen and it sucks. But you are NOT the worst mom!
You are far from a bad mom. Kids get into things all the time! Hoping you are home soon! xoxo
These things happen and have no bearing on your status as a mother! You're a great mother!
Sending good thoughts your way. Hope all is well.
I agree with the rest. This in no way makes you a bad mother. I cannot tell you how many kids I know of who have taken medicine they shouldn't. You are a GREAT mom for being aware enough of what your kids are doing that you realized it before he was no longer breathing AND you took him for help. You can't keep him in a bubble but you can be there with a hug and bandaid for the bumps and bruises in life. You are a GOOD mom, Nancy!!
Don't beat yourself up about this - could happen to any mom or dad. Those little guys are quick! You are an awesome mom. Glad Karl is okay.
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