Monday, March 22, 2010

Tomorrow morning is my big "what's next?" back appointment.

You may remember me calling my newest back doctor, "dr love", because I was in love with him - due to him knowing what was wrong with my back. At that time, he said there was a lot that could be done - all the way to surgery for fusing the vertebrae together to facet joint replacement.

Since then, he's sent me to Physical Therapy (which he's since stopped, knowing it's not going to help my problem) and to a Pain Management Dr who performed the series of three injections (which is the most I can get in an entire year). Last time I saw Dr Love, he simply discussed positions I can sleep in and how pillows can help, refilled my pain patches and sent me on my way. That was Jan 26th. Since then, I haven't gotten any relief and I'm in agony every single night without fail. So I made an appointment, which is tomorrow morning, to ask him "what's next?".

I'm a little nervous about what he'll say. I was so positive about seeing him at the beginning because he seemed to understand what I was going through, but just sending me on my way last time with pillow positions has gotten me worried. I'm going to bring up the surgical options. I don't want to just be set aside as a there's-nothing-more-to-do patient. I want help. I want to get better. I want to do everything possible to ~cure~ my back issue, not just deal with it.

I don't know why I'm so scared, but wish me luck.


CanadianMama said...

Good luck Nancy!

Katie said...

Gosh, that is tough, Nancy. As someone who suffers with chronic neck/back pain, I can identify both with the excitement of finding someone who "gets" it and the disappointment of being shuffled into the "here, just pop a pill (or patch) and DON'T call me in the morning" patient pile. The fact that you are being so proactive and will not allow yourself to be pushed aside is good and I hope you get exactly what you need from Dr. Love.

Lisa said...

Good luck!

..Soo.See.. said...

G'luck and hope you get some answers!!!

Geochick said...

Good luck and I hope Dr. Love is a bit more proactive this visit.

jill said...

Wishing you luck! It freakin' sucks when doctors can't/don't offer solutions to the problem. I hope you work out a good plan of attack.

Steph O. said...

I hope you get some opts! My mom just had the shots done yesterday, so waiting to see if they help her. I know living with constant pain sucks! Surgery may seem scary, but it'll be better in the long run than all the heavy meds!

Jamie said...

I'm way behind on my reader, but I hope your appointment went well. I've never had back problems but my Dad does. It is so frustrating to watch all he has gone through for even a little bit of relief from the pain he lives with every day.

I hope Dr. Love had some answers for you.

edenland said...

Hey spunky .... are you ok? I've been thinking of you a lot lately, hope all is well over there.

Mate, do you know I'm going to BlogHer this year?? I will be in the same COUNTRY AS YOU. Can you go? Fuck I would love to meet you. I adore you, and read every single one of your posts.

Ok so I have replied SO MANY TIMES to your email address, I have used two different addresses myself .... I think your spamkiller may be eating them or something? But I swear Nancy I thanked you AS SOON as I received your awesome chocolate magnets. And you kept emailing me to ask if I got them, and I keep replying - now I'm paranoid that you think I'm a selfish stupid bitch who doesn't thank people for gifts.

When you receive your big fuck-off parcel from me, laden with presents for all of your family, THEN you will love me again, won't you.

You just motherfucking rock. I hope you're ok, I'm starting to worry.



jenn said...

Hey- I am really late to this- everything go ok? What did dr. love say?