You may remember me calling my newest back doctor, "dr love", because I was in love with him - due to him knowing what was wrong with my back. At that time, he said there was a lot that could be done - all the way to surgery for fusing the vertebrae together to facet joint replacement.
Since then, he's sent me to Physical Therapy (which he's since stopped, knowing it's not going to help my problem) and to a Pain Management Dr who performed the series of three injections (which is the most I can get in an entire year). Last time I saw Dr Love, he simply discussed positions I can sleep in and how pillows can help, refilled my pain patches and sent me on my way. That was Jan 26th. Since then, I haven't gotten any relief and I'm in agony every single night without fail. So I made an appointment, which is tomorrow morning, to ask him "what's next?".
I'm a little nervous about what he'll say. I was so positive about seeing him at the beginning because he seemed to understand what I was going through, but just sending me on my way last time with pillow positions has gotten me worried. I'm going to bring up the surgical options. I don't want to just be set aside as a there's-nothing-more-to-do patient. I want help. I want to get better. I want to do everything possible to ~cure~ my back issue, not just deal with it.
I don't know why I'm so scared, but wish me luck.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
10 comments:
Good luck Nancy!
Gosh, that is tough, Nancy. As someone who suffers with chronic neck/back pain, I can identify both with the excitement of finding someone who "gets" it and the disappointment of being shuffled into the "here, just pop a pill (or patch) and DON'T call me in the morning" patient pile. The fact that you are being so proactive and will not allow yourself to be pushed aside is good and I hope you get exactly what you need from Dr. Love.
Good luck!
G'luck and hope you get some answers!!!
Good luck and I hope Dr. Love is a bit more proactive this visit.
Wishing you luck! It freakin' sucks when doctors can't/don't offer solutions to the problem. I hope you work out a good plan of attack.
I hope you get some opts! My mom just had the shots done yesterday, so waiting to see if they help her. I know living with constant pain sucks! Surgery may seem scary, but it'll be better in the long run than all the heavy meds!
I'm way behind on my reader, but I hope your appointment went well. I've never had back problems but my Dad does. It is so frustrating to watch all he has gone through for even a little bit of relief from the pain he lives with every day.
I hope Dr. Love had some answers for you.
Hey spunky .... are you ok? I've been thinking of you a lot lately, hope all is well over there.
Mate, do you know I'm going to BlogHer this year?? I will be in the same COUNTRY AS YOU. Can you go? Fuck I would love to meet you. I adore you, and read every single one of your posts.
Ok so I have replied SO MANY TIMES to your email address, I have used two different addresses myself .... I think your spamkiller may be eating them or something? But I swear Nancy I thanked you AS SOON as I received your awesome chocolate magnets. And you kept emailing me to ask if I got them, and I keep replying - now I'm paranoid that you think I'm a selfish stupid bitch who doesn't thank people for gifts.
When you receive your big fuck-off parcel from me, laden with presents for all of your family, THEN you will love me again, won't you.
You just motherfucking rock. I hope you're ok, I'm starting to worry.
NANCY IS DA SHIT
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXXO
Hey- I am really late to this- everything go ok? What did dr. love say?
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