Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Whew. What is wrong with me?

Is it because I'm an hour away from the appointment that will determine when I get to start to ttc again? Is it because there has been a literal downpour of BFP from fellow bloggers? Is it because I just went through an entire list of secondary IF blogs from the stirrup queen's blog listing only to find more than half of them were pregnant or had newborns?

When you want to wallow, you want to wallow. And finding smiling pictures of new mothers holding their newborns is a shock to the system.

I dunno. Plus, one blog had a picture of a baby that was stillborn and he was just so beautiful. Oh man. No matter how bad I feel, there are always people who have it worse. That's for sure.

There looks to be a HUGE March baby boom around us. And it's just wonderful for them. Really. I congratulate them with all my heart. I think it's just tougher because if my IUI would have worked, March would have been my own EDD. I hate that I even know that.


Erin said...

I know how you feel. Sorry, I have been MIA. I was thisclose to being a March mom and I was so excited!

Let me know how your appointment goes.

Jewels said...

Hey Nancy, I'm so glad to be able to still hang out with you.
The boards are slow and I feel somber, it’s kind of a melancholy world right now. I’m feeling some depression, I don't know if it has to do with TTC, all the BFP’s, or my lack of one, but seeing you really lifts my spirits. I’m really glad you’re here.

jamie said...

Nancy, I just wanted to let you know that I am here to support you. I love your blog and I don't think that there is anything wrong with you at all. I'm glad that you can vent your true feelings here and I never read your blog and think anything negative about you. I hope that your dreams of another baby do come true for you, and no matter how long it takes or how many depressed/down blog entries I read I will still read them with an open heart and hope for you and all of the TTC ladies out there.