11dpIUI & now negative. Trigger is out showing that nothing else is in.
The tarot to go along with it:
"The Six of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in transition. I have what I need and am willing to trust the process order to move on, seek refuge or new opportunity. I'm not willing to remain where my perceptions are invalidated but being vulnerable I must rely on guidance to move in a new direction "
and the daily horoscope:
"You may not always trust your intuition, but today it's more accurate than ever and sending you messages you can't afford to miss. Pay attention, but wait for a while if you think it's important. "
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Thursday, January 31, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
As I start to obsess...
I had a nice temp jump today on my chart. Now, I know that post-o temps really don't mean much until that elusive BFP is found. I know most temp "signs" are totally hindsight - only after a bfp do they mean anything. I've had plenty of great charts with bfns at the end. But, I do notice things that miss hope have pointed out to me.
Great. I have a nice temp jump at 8dpo. Mind you, after a nice temp dip yesterday at 7dpo. ~If~ I ended up with a bfp, I would be able to point out "implantation dip! Triphasic pattern! (if it continues)". I know charts still show these patterns with nothing to show at the end. And I also know pregnancy charts don't need to show these types of patterns. But, like I said, miss hope is holding me by the hand and pointing these things out.
After glaring at my chart for awhile, I go check my morning email. I check my daily tarot first.
"The Empress card affirms that my alter ego today is a Domestic Diva, whose superpower is to conceive. I shall indulge the pleasure of a delicious obsession with room to enhance my standard."
You've got to be kidding me.
Then, I read my only other daily horoscope email, my general outlook for the day.
"You'll be dealing with your share of nervous energy. It's exhausting, sure, and you've just about had it. But if you can keep your eye on the ball for a few more weeks, you'll have everything you were after."
Heh.
Great. I have a nice temp jump at 8dpo. Mind you, after a nice temp dip yesterday at 7dpo. ~If~ I ended up with a bfp, I would be able to point out "implantation dip! Triphasic pattern! (if it continues)". I know charts still show these patterns with nothing to show at the end. And I also know pregnancy charts don't need to show these types of patterns. But, like I said, miss hope is holding me by the hand and pointing these things out.
After glaring at my chart for awhile, I go check my morning email. I check my daily tarot first.
"The Empress card affirms that my alter ego today is a Domestic Diva, whose superpower is to conceive. I shall indulge the pleasure of a delicious obsession with room to enhance my standard."
You've got to be kidding me.
Then, I read my only other daily horoscope email, my general outlook for the day.
"You'll be dealing with your share of nervous energy. It's exhausting, sure, and you've just about had it. But if you can keep your eye on the ball for a few more weeks, you'll have everything you were after."
Heh.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
An update to today's news ...
Yesterday in my "chugga chugga" post, I talked about the tarot/horoscopes I received daily and how cool they are when they "fit" into my current situation.
Well, here are today's tarot and general horoscope:
Tarot: "The Ten of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in acceptance. I let go of all attachment or resistance to sustaining conditions that are out of my hands. E tu brute? I can't move forward by beating a dead horse. It's the last word so put a period on it and move on."
I don't like the "put a period on it and move on" part if I think of it in literal terms. Last thing I want it to put a period (AF) on the end of this cycle! But, in figurative terms, thinking how it's out of my hands and there's nothing more I can do, so just let it be - I do like.
Horoscope: "A very short-lived window of opportunity has just opened, and if you're smart, you'll jump right through it confidently -- with a great big smile on your face. Any hint of uncertainty, however, will land you right back at Go, without the $200. Remember, doubt is fatal to power."
Ovulation is a short lived window of opportunity and I will jump through it. I need to be positive about the experience though and allow hope to live. There is no reason why this can't work. It may not, but I will keep in mind that it CAN.
Well, here are today's tarot and general horoscope:
Tarot: "The Ten of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in acceptance. I let go of all attachment or resistance to sustaining conditions that are out of my hands. E tu brute? I can't move forward by beating a dead horse. It's the last word so put a period on it and move on."
I don't like the "put a period on it and move on" part if I think of it in literal terms. Last thing I want it to put a period (AF) on the end of this cycle! But, in figurative terms, thinking how it's out of my hands and there's nothing more I can do, so just let it be - I do like.
Horoscope: "A very short-lived window of opportunity has just opened, and if you're smart, you'll jump right through it confidently -- with a great big smile on your face. Any hint of uncertainty, however, will land you right back at Go, without the $200. Remember, doubt is fatal to power."
Ovulation is a short lived window of opportunity and I will jump through it. I need to be positive about the experience though and allow hope to live. There is no reason why this can't work. It may not, but I will keep in mind that it CAN.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Chugga Chugga Choo Choo! (updated)
(thanks for the inspiration Katie!)
It seems that I have a little egg that could. Lefty is sitting at 17mm this morning and Righty is still behind at 15mm.
"Not quite ready for trigger, we'll see you tomorrow" was what I was told. Ultrasound #8 is tomorrow morning at 8:15am.
I asked all sorts of questions but my NP is great at telling me a lot of information on things I didn't actually ask. I can tell you what the beginning protocol is for older IVF patients at my clinic compared to what they give younger patients. I can tell you the older patient protocol is quite similar to an endo patient. I can tell you about some things they give for endo patients. But I can't tell you what I'll be taking. See, I asked if they do birth control pills as their "normal" protocol with IVF so I would get an idea of timing if/when I move to IVF. Instead, I got a rundown of ~all~ protocols. She was so nice, I didn't even try to narrow it down. It's too early to ask what my IVF protocol will be. I need to relax a bit. (ack. I said that phrase!).
Soooooo.....
I'm "on track" with growth. I'll trigger tomorrow or they'll have me trigger myself on Sunday. Then a Sunday or Monday insemination is most likely in store. She also said my lining was "certainly taking off" but the screen was turned and couldn't see the number and I forgot to ask.
I ~DID ASK~ if my eggs will be of lower quality since they are growing so slowly. She said ~"On the contrary. There are European studies doing slow growth protocols which they showing better egg quality as they mature slowly, rather than quickly." I smiled and said my eggs are like wine. And then I put on my pants.
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updated: I just looked at my "daily tarot" card. What a riot.
"The Seven of Pentacles card suggests that my power today lies in timing. I have earned the payoff. I don't interfere with the natural progression and development of things that are out of my hands at the moment. I am empowered by preparation and my asset is using time wisely."
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updated again: As I have said before, I get a few horoscope things everyday delivered to my email. I don't read them daily and I have them sorted so they go right into a separate folder. If I want to look, I do, if not, it gets all deleted, unread. I really like the daily tarot though. I'm not a "believer" but I do get enjoyment from them. And when they are coincidentally cool, I enjoy it even more. Anywho, I just looked at my daily general horoscope.
"Even if you've never believed in fate, you're about to become aware of its existence. Circumstances that are supposedly beyond your control will put you in touch with someone you wouldn't have met if you hadn't been diverted."
(children mentioned)
I always talk about the fact of taking 18 cycles to get my daughter, Ella. While the 18 cycles sucked (but couldn't be happier it was ~only~ 18 cycles), had I conceived before that, I wouldn't of had this amazing little person. Yes, I'd have another amazing little person who I would love just as much, but I wouldn't have ELLA. Had I not had to wait (had my time diverted), she'd of been someone I'd never of met. So this silly daily horoscope was cool.
It seems that I have a little egg that could. Lefty is sitting at 17mm this morning and Righty is still behind at 15mm.
"Not quite ready for trigger, we'll see you tomorrow" was what I was told. Ultrasound #8 is tomorrow morning at 8:15am.
I asked all sorts of questions but my NP is great at telling me a lot of information on things I didn't actually ask. I can tell you what the beginning protocol is for older IVF patients at my clinic compared to what they give younger patients. I can tell you the older patient protocol is quite similar to an endo patient. I can tell you about some things they give for endo patients. But I can't tell you what I'll be taking. See, I asked if they do birth control pills as their "normal" protocol with IVF so I would get an idea of timing if/when I move to IVF. Instead, I got a rundown of ~all~ protocols. She was so nice, I didn't even try to narrow it down. It's too early to ask what my IVF protocol will be. I need to relax a bit. (ack. I said that phrase!).
Soooooo.....
I'm "on track" with growth. I'll trigger tomorrow or they'll have me trigger myself on Sunday. Then a Sunday or Monday insemination is most likely in store. She also said my lining was "certainly taking off" but the screen was turned and couldn't see the number and I forgot to ask.
I ~DID ASK~ if my eggs will be of lower quality since they are growing so slowly. She said ~"On the contrary. There are European studies doing slow growth protocols which they showing better egg quality as they mature slowly, rather than quickly." I smiled and said my eggs are like wine. And then I put on my pants.
-----
updated: I just looked at my "daily tarot" card. What a riot.
"The Seven of Pentacles card suggests that my power today lies in timing. I have earned the payoff. I don't interfere with the natural progression and development of things that are out of my hands at the moment. I am empowered by preparation and my asset is using time wisely."
-----
updated again: As I have said before, I get a few horoscope things everyday delivered to my email. I don't read them daily and I have them sorted so they go right into a separate folder. If I want to look, I do, if not, it gets all deleted, unread. I really like the daily tarot though. I'm not a "believer" but I do get enjoyment from them. And when they are coincidentally cool, I enjoy it even more. Anywho, I just looked at my daily general horoscope.
"Even if you've never believed in fate, you're about to become aware of its existence. Circumstances that are supposedly beyond your control will put you in touch with someone you wouldn't have met if you hadn't been diverted."
(children mentioned)
I always talk about the fact of taking 18 cycles to get my daughter, Ella. While the 18 cycles sucked (but couldn't be happier it was ~only~ 18 cycles), had I conceived before that, I wouldn't of had this amazing little person. Yes, I'd have another amazing little person who I would love just as much, but I wouldn't have ELLA. Had I not had to wait (had my time diverted), she'd of been someone I'd never of met. So this silly daily horoscope was cool.
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