I am in utter shock over the comments I have received in the post below (well, actually, on my other blog).
Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. That kind of support is simply overwhelming. You actually have put me in a place where I am beyond words.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- If you are interested in ~me~
- Costumes are easy around Halloween
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14 comments:
We all love you Nancy, no need to thank us! :) Thank YOU, for opening up and sharing something like that!
Sometimes it takes reading someone elses struggles and strifes to come to the conclusion you may be on the same boat. It took great courage to "come out" about depression, however, I think I am still on the same boat you jumped off.
:o)
It's all because we love you. THat's the amazing thing about this forum- I honestly feel that you really do get what you give here. You support & rally for so many, it's only fitting that you get it back when you need it.
Besides- we <3 you!
We love you Nancy!
Nancy, you are amazing! I just wanted to let you know that I nominated you for an award on my blog... Take care!
Nancy~
I was so busy yesterday that I didn't comment on anybody's blog. I read your post this morning.
Thank you for being so up front and honest in that post. I'm sure it was difficult for you to tell us that.
Please know that we are all here for you when ever you need us. You have been wonderful to me this entire last year and ae still supporting me with your comments on my blog. Please know that I will be thinking about you.
I hope that everything continues to go well for you and remember, I like to help take care of people, so please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. (you know from all the way in Michigan)
You are great Nancy and we all love you!!
You're always there for everyone else, of course we will be here for you.
Lots of love to you!
You deserve it. You have helped us all more than you know.
Damn I'm late on this.
Depression sucks and for those (such as yourself) who are willing to accept that that is what is happening there really is an easy fix. Brain chemicals get screwed up for all sorts of reasons and you had more than your share of reasons that could happen.
I'm so glad you are doing better. You are my hero.
You have always been so kind and supportive of everyone else when we needed you. It is the least we can do to be supportive of you. I'm just sorry that you were silently struggling for so long. I'm glad Tom confronted you about how you were doing so that you could get some help.
Now you are back to the regular Nancy that we all have gotten to know and love. You know, the one that does bold things like Burlesque. ;)
I didn't comment yesterday because I spent most of the day thinking about what you wrote. I can't thank you enough Nancy, you articulated so much of what I've been feeling lately. I've finally made an appointment to see my doc next week.
And I love you, did I mention that? In an appropriate way and the right amount of course ;)
nancy- I have lived very close to depression for 15 years. T suffers from SAD and has been on anti depressents for 6 years straight now. Prior to that it was a seasonal roller coaster until it got to the point that I had to force him to get help. I could not face one more day where I had to drive home and wonder if I would find him dead or alive....you are brave for getting help...Your husband is brave for asking you to. Clearly you love each other very much, this will strengthen your bond even more~
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