Thursday, August 2, 2007

All of these BFPs have me feeling anxious

Since I'm taking a break, seeing everyone finally succeed is doing a number to my heart and head. It's making me feel really anxious, instead of just relaxing since there is nothing in the world I can do about anything right now.

Man, I'm also feeling REALLY bad about the few failed cycles I've seen this month too. If I fell this weirded out about the wave of BFPs and I wasn't even ttc this month, could you imagine how it would feel to be the one who it didn't work? I want to give all of them double the attention, just to show them that their pain ~is~ important enough to focus on. That the BFPs haven't thrown their pain out the window. But if I give them more attention, well, I kinda look like a stalker.

Ahhhh. I hate taking breaks at this. I hate it. Nothing to do. Nothing to obsess about. Nothing to wait on. Just keep plugging along and hoping I get to start again in a couple of weeks. This sucks.

4 comments:

jamie said...

Go get drunk and have sex in anticipation of a long 9 months of sobriety and not feeling good.

*your personal cheerleader*

BethH6703 said...

first off, LMAO @ Jamie's comment! Thats one smart cheerleader you've got there!

I was gonna leave some smartass comment like "patience my dear grasshopper, all things come to those who wait", and then run for cover... I figured the distraction of a blog bashing might do us both some good.

but after Jamie's brilliance, I just don't have it in me. giggling takes the "snarkiness" right out of me, apparently

Kat said...

I'll trudge right along with you! Let's toast to a glimmer of hope in Sept! =)

Krista said...

hope your BFP is fast approaching! Thanks for giving m the FYI on the new blog. I was wondering...