I just spent some time in reading about the loss of both Thalon and Maddie. I'm overcome.
I'm linking to Lilith's blog which links to both the sites for Thalon and Maddie. Please read and support.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- Back when I was a stupid teenager.
- The update. Now including an update!
- The update of no updates.
- Problem?
- IV in and waiting for my slot. WooHoo to my nurse ...
- It's surgery day.
- Doesn't Sunday Feel Like it's the END of the Week?
- Repeat of "Scary Guy Pills"
- Welcome ICLW kickoff!
- I don't know if I'll make it through the day
- Snow Day!
- The doctor called
- Surgery #18? 19? (upd 11/2011)
- There are simply no words at times.
- ~ouch~
- Where is this outfit acceptable?
- Looks like I had a flair for the dramatic.
- I'm one step away
- I'm lame.
- Work Rules. And my Socks
- Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to work I go.
- National Cleavage Day.
- A few questions ...
- Welcome to the world Caiden!
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10 comments:
I feel you. How can a mother possibly handle the pain of loosing a child? It is almost unbareable to even THINK about it let alone live it. It is such a sad reality that some kids don't outlive their parents like they should. I think I would LITERALLY kill myself if something happened to Mason, I can't live without him now that he is in my life. I feel SO bad for those families, and you are right- there are no words.
That is completely heartbreaking. I can't even imagine what those two families are going through right now.
How sad...I just want to get home so I can give Andrew a million kisses and hugs. I can't even imagine losing a child...how horrible.
Losing a child has to be the worst thing in the entire world.
It breaks my heart. These families have a long road of grieving ahead of them.
I can't imagine the pain! I'm upset and I have never met or read the blogs of these families. I'll be thinking about them for a long time!
My heart shattered each time I heard. I am so devastated for them.
I saw this...so, so sad....
I had read the sad news about Maddie, and I am so sad to hear about Thalon. It sounds as if they both caught bad viruses -- so awful. I can't even imagine what they are going through. My heart just breaks for them.
There are no words. It's a fine reminder to hug our kids a little longer and not tell them, "in a minute" though.
My heart breaks for these families. Thanks for your sweet comments on my blog as well. xxxx
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