Holy moly.
The progesterone I'm taking sure is doing a doozy to my system today. Well, not my "system" so much as my boobs. Sensitive and they feel like they are about to bust out of my bra (pun intended).
Breathe.
I feel much better now that I have the IVF ball rolling. Thank you to everyone who took the time to comment today. There is still some hope for tomorrow's beta, but I'm definitely not holding my breath. At least the beta will put a finality to this without making me wait for AF. Silver lining, right?
Hey - has anyone using blogger noticed spellcheck isn't working? I click it, but nothing happens. Although I don't proof read, I do like to run spellcheck.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
We talked about our "next step"
Me and the hubby talked about the next step.
It really started out as him not knowing what to do with me this morning. I was obviously upset and he sat next to me, just to hold me. Which, of course, made me cry.
I sobbed "I'm sorry I can't give you another child. Your chance for a son." His reaction startled me. He told me that he will never be upset with me if I can't give him another child. He said that although he ~wants~ another one, if it doesn't happen, he won't be devastated. He'll be happy with what we have. And while I also will be (and I am happy with what we have), I will be devastated when we come to the end of our journey. How can you not be? How can you work so hard at something and have to quit, without being devastated? I know I can still have a great life with this as our ending in search of #3, but I'm not going to be happy with the ending itself.
Anyway, I talked about how the next step is going to be a big one. It's going to be even more emotionally draining on me. It's going to be expensive. It's also going to be tough on him with the lifestyle he'll have to abide by for those 6 weeks up until retrieval. He told me that if I am up for it, so is he. He'll do everything he has to do. But if I don't want to take the next step, he won't push me. While I'm happy he's so open, it does make me feel that he doesn't want this as much as I do. But I know that's not true and he's just being a good husband.
I called my RE's office and they are calling the insurance company today, for pre-approval. (And let me just say that I thank my lucky stars for this new insurance everyday. It fell into our laps when I never thought we'd have IF coverage in a million years.) I have to submit some documentation myself, as does my OB's office, to prove I was in "treatment" a full year ago. Easy enough to prove, I just have to jump through the hoops. Once all the information is with the insurance company, they will go to review and will give me a pre-approval letter and then I can start my first IVF cycle. I'm unsure how this timing will work, but I sure do hope it works out without too much of a wait. My time is running out and I need to start this sooner rather than later.
Wow. I'm going to do IVF.
It really started out as him not knowing what to do with me this morning. I was obviously upset and he sat next to me, just to hold me. Which, of course, made me cry.
I sobbed "I'm sorry I can't give you another child. Your chance for a son." His reaction startled me. He told me that he will never be upset with me if I can't give him another child. He said that although he ~wants~ another one, if it doesn't happen, he won't be devastated. He'll be happy with what we have. And while I also will be (and I am happy with what we have), I will be devastated when we come to the end of our journey. How can you not be? How can you work so hard at something and have to quit, without being devastated? I know I can still have a great life with this as our ending in search of #3, but I'm not going to be happy with the ending itself.
Anyway, I talked about how the next step is going to be a big one. It's going to be even more emotionally draining on me. It's going to be expensive. It's also going to be tough on him with the lifestyle he'll have to abide by for those 6 weeks up until retrieval. He told me that if I am up for it, so is he. He'll do everything he has to do. But if I don't want to take the next step, he won't push me. While I'm happy he's so open, it does make me feel that he doesn't want this as much as I do. But I know that's not true and he's just being a good husband.
I called my RE's office and they are calling the insurance company today, for pre-approval. (And let me just say that I thank my lucky stars for this new insurance everyday. It fell into our laps when I never thought we'd have IF coverage in a million years.) I have to submit some documentation myself, as does my OB's office, to prove I was in "treatment" a full year ago. Easy enough to prove, I just have to jump through the hoops. Once all the information is with the insurance company, they will go to review and will give me a pre-approval letter and then I can start my first IVF cycle. I'm unsure how this timing will work, but I sure do hope it works out without too much of a wait. My time is running out and I need to start this sooner rather than later.
Wow. I'm going to do IVF.
That answers that.
11dpIUI & now negative. Trigger is out showing that nothing else is in.
The tarot to go along with it:
"The Six of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in transition. I have what I need and am willing to trust the process order to move on, seek refuge or new opportunity. I'm not willing to remain where my perceptions are invalidated but being vulnerable I must rely on guidance to move in a new direction "
and the daily horoscope:
"You may not always trust your intuition, but today it's more accurate than ever and sending you messages you can't afford to miss. Pay attention, but wait for a while if you think it's important. "
The tarot to go along with it:
"The Six of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in transition. I have what I need and am willing to trust the process order to move on, seek refuge or new opportunity. I'm not willing to remain where my perceptions are invalidated but being vulnerable I must rely on guidance to move in a new direction "
and the daily horoscope:
"You may not always trust your intuition, but today it's more accurate than ever and sending you messages you can't afford to miss. Pay attention, but wait for a while if you think it's important. "
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
No comments please.
I suddenly have this feeling that this isn't going to be my cycle.
With all the excitement of still getting bfps, I just know it's still from my trigger. (for those of you not reading today - it's 11 days past original hcg trigger of 6,666 UIs and only 5 days past the support trigger of 3,334 UIs of hcg).
Even though I have my first triphasic chart of my life, I know it still doesn't mean anything.
I just I know tomorrow's BFN at 11dpIUI is going to happen. I know I'm going to get another BFN at 12dpIUI. I know my beta that day will show nothing.
I was so full of hope until just a little while ago, where I just got a sudden feeling that this is not my month. I will have to continue on to IVF where I don't know what the outcome will be.
Wow, a sudden sadness has just overcome me.
This isn't for anyone to try to lift my spirits or to try to get "good lucks" coming my way. I just wanted to put this out in a place someone would understand. And just listen to.
With all the excitement of still getting bfps, I just know it's still from my trigger. (for those of you not reading today - it's 11 days past original hcg trigger of 6,666 UIs and only 5 days past the support trigger of 3,334 UIs of hcg).
Even though I have my first triphasic chart of my life, I know it still doesn't mean anything.
I just I know tomorrow's BFN at 11dpIUI is going to happen. I know I'm going to get another BFN at 12dpIUI. I know my beta that day will show nothing.
I was so full of hope until just a little while ago, where I just got a sudden feeling that this is not my month. I will have to continue on to IVF where I don't know what the outcome will be.
Wow, a sudden sadness has just overcome me.
This isn't for anyone to try to lift my spirits or to try to get "good lucks" coming my way. I just wanted to put this out in a place someone would understand. And just listen to.
Questions & Answers, Part II
Okay, that was ~wonderful~ everyone! Thank you SO very much!! I had to take some time out to actually get some work done today - but I see there were more questions asked, so I'll go ahead and answer them here.
And really, thanks for supporting me today. As the day has worn on, I've gotten more at peace with knowing in my heart that I simply still have the trigger in my system. Although I want more than anything for it to be from a baby growing in there, all signs point to trigger. It's still not all lost, of course, it's only 10dpIUI - I don't start giving up hope until BFNs at 12dpo. I still have a good two days of hope in me!
With no further ado ... (had to look that one up. I typed "ado", but then thought it was "adieu". Both real words, but "ado" is the right on)
Q: What did you do to stop your fish from being mean to me after that first visit? Or was it their idea all on their own?
A: I had a stern talking with them.
Q: What is your relationship with your in-laws like?
A: Really good. His dad still mystifies me at times - I sometimes think he doesn't like me, but then I guess that's just his personality. I love them both though. Cool, eh?
Q: When getting dressed in the morning, do you put your left sock or your right sock on first (assuming you are wearing socks)?
A: left first.
Q: When getting undressed, do you take your left sock or your right sock off first?
A: left again.
Q: Same questions as above, but in regard to which pant leg goes on and off first.
A: I actually had to stand up and pretend to take off my pants. Left yet again.
Q: What kind of tree would you be and what would you think of being pruned?
A: One of those pink blossoming trees. I don't know what they are called. Maybe crab apple? heh. And totally no pun intended with the "crab" part. I would like to be pruned because all the dead stuff would be cut away, allowing the best growth out of me.
Q: What kind of animal would you be and, if you lived in a zoo, would you feel oppressed or be delighted that you got your basic needs taken care of without any effort AND got to watch a parade of goofy humans visiting almost every day?
A: I'd be a hippo. They looks so peaceful yet they are fucking hardcore. I'd be hyped about having everything taken care of, but the loss of freedom? I don't know if it would make up for it. I think of it as being a "kept woman" and having everything I want given to me, but not being able to go do what I'd want. I'd rather be poor and free than rich in prison.
Q: What activity do you like so much and think others are missing out on to great detriment that you actively promote it? (Besides the obvious, sex, roller derby, etc).
A: Regularly scheduled massages.
Q: What do you think is the most under-rated food?
A: The egg.
Q: The most over-rated food?
A: Caviar. Although kind of seems like I'm countering my last answer because this is an egg too, but this is a gross egg. Balls of fish juice. Ick.
Q: As an alternative to the books question, what 3 movies would you take to a desert island, and why?
A: Fight club cause it's bad ass. Office space cause it's funny. A christmas story because it wouldn't ever feel like Christmas without it (even on a desert island).
Q: What person have you lost contact with that you are most curious about?
A: Jason and/or Damian. And Jill and Scout.
Q: If you got a chance to name a mountain after yourself, which would it be? Which river?
A: Don't know. I'm not into geography, so I don't know mountains/rivers enough to answer.
Q: When's your wedding anniversary, and why did you choose that date?
A: July 14th. We wanted a summer wedding and that's just the date that things worked out for.
Q: If you could learn how to make the best ever any kind of food, meal, or dish, what would you want to be the best cook of?
A: Sushi.
Q: What is the worst thing you ever did in school?
A: Hrm. Tie. In high school, I walked out of my french class and threw my book on the teacher's foot. In college, I slept through my very last final of my senior year because I was drunk.
Q: If you could be best friends with any president-- past, present,or prospective; living or dead-- who would it be? Why?
A: Another one I can't really answer. I'm not into politics nor history. (man, some of these questions are so good and I look like an idiot by not having answers!)
Q: If you owned your own business, what would it be in?
A: Something that would change someone's life for the better. I think RE's have the coolest job to be able to give children to some women who would otherwise not have them. I would want to do something that life altering.
Q: If you had to lose a limb or organ, which would you give up and why?
A: Oh boy. What a question! A limb? What is the definition of a limb? Just arms/legs? I guess I would choose a leg. I would lose out on some ways to get around, but I could make due with one leg. What I wouldn't want to lose is most of my sense of "touch", which is felt through the hands.
Q: What kind of car do you drive?
A: A mom car. A ford freestyle. But as I look at Ford, looks like they've replaced it with this. The top picture looks like my car.
Q: A FNP prescribes 100mg of prometrium to be taken CD 15-28. Patient started the pill on CD 24 (or Tuesday), they will be taken until CD28 which is Saturday. On Monday patient has to start BCP again. Typical cycle length is 29 days. Prometrium was prescribed because FNP think the progesterone level is too low for the amount of estrogen in one's body- blood test results aren't back to prove what actual levels are yet. Will one's menses be delayed due to the progesterone, and that in combination with starting the bcp 1.5 days later, will that cause BTB, or just a funky late menses?
A: Whoa. I'm not an RE, so I can't even begin to tell you! But why would someone go on progesterone if birth control pills were going to start to be taken anyway? What would be the point? Without birth control pills, I can say that progesterone ~can~ delay start of AF, but not always. If the levels are high enough to fool body, it can be delayed. Or not. On each treatment cycle, I'm on 200mg of progesterone for my entire LP and I always end up getting AF. But given birth control pills, that's going to rise estrogen levels too, so it would probably fool the body into thinking AF shouldn't come, so I would guess that a combination of bcp ~and~ progesterone would keep AF at bay. But again, I'm not a doctor.
Q: What's your favorite movie and why?
A: I'm really into fight club again. It's really a complex movie.
Q: tell us about the contents of you cereal cabinet.
A: heh. Lucky charms, fruity cheerios, fiber one, fiber one flakes. That's it!
Q: If you could have any super powers what would it be and why.
A: The ability to stop time - but being able to bring anyone into my "time stop" with me. No fun by myself.
Q: Can AF start while you are taking progestrone supplements?
A: This is a reoccurring question. Yes, it can.
Q: What kind of toothpaste do you use?
A: Crest.
Q: Have you ever been a smoker (cigarettes)? If so, do you still crave one every once in awhile?
A: Yes, I was in high school and for a short time after college. Nope, I don't crave them.
Q: Have you always wanted three children or has this number materialized over time?
A: I had gone into this wanting two. But when #2 was still in my belly, hubby said he wanted another and I agreed. Since then, I've wanted three. I don't know if it's because he said he wanted one or if I would of made that choice given the time to make it.
Q: How many siblings do you have (not including IL's) and what are the age/sex of each?
A: 4 brothers and 1 sister. Brothers are: 15 yrs older, 13 yrs older, 10 yrs older and 8 months older (half brother). Sister is 7 years older.
Q: Do you have pets?
A: 2 cats. 1 tortoise. Lots of fish (including a frog).
Q: How old was Ella the first time you left her with someone else overnight? How did you feel about it? Was it easier with Allie the first time you left her overnight since you'd done it before?
A: I honestly don't remember how old Ella was. Wow, I can't believe I don't remember. It was with my mother though and it wasn't a big deal to me. I had pumped enough breastmilk for her to eat. With Allie, she was 3 months old and again, easy. No, it wasn't "easier" as I never had a hard time with it. I think it's very important to be able to have a life away from your children - a way to keep you as YOU. I am ~not~ just "mother of two girls". I'm also "Nancy". I don't want to be away from them a lot, but I am happy I can be away once in awhile.
Q: How do you do it all? I work don't have children and I feel like pulling out my hair sometimes trying to keep up with laundry and dishes. How do you manage work, being a mommy, keeping your house in one piece and keeping a spark in your marriage?
A: It all comes on you slowly. Had you picked me up when I was single or even newly married and dumped me into this life, I'd never of survived.
Q: You're really outgoing on line and it sounds like that carries over IRL. Is your husband really outgoing too or is he shy?
A: You know, he seems shy/quiet when you first meet him. But given the opportunity for him to get comfortable, he's just as outgoing as I am.
Q: Would you mind reading this post and providing input? I know you're in HR and I thought maybe you'd have an opinion on whether my interpretation of the whole job offer thing holds water. I know you're not in the same state and I don't expect you to research anything. I just want to know what your instinct says.
A: I got a bachelor's degree in Business Management, focusing in Human Resources in 1995. I worked in HR from 1995-1997. Since then, I haven't been back. And I also never focused in labor laws. I don't know what kind of position of them being 'bankrupt' does to your job offer. Yeah, they promised you a salary, but if the company goes under, I don't know if that gets them out of it. I would definitely call your state's Department of Labor office and ask them what to do. They can give you the real deal. Totally sounds crappy though - they aren't letting you go so you don't have a way to collect unemployment, but they aren't offering to pay you for any hours worked. It's obviously a joke, like you said it was. Ugh. That sucks. Sorry!
Q: do you know of me or am i just random to you?
A: Well, I know you from the fact you've been commenting to me for a very long time - from my first blog! But since you never link to your own stuff, I don't really know "you". I've gathered some info over the timeframe, but not enough for me to be able to tell lots back to you. If you are someone I "knew" from another forum, I'm not aware of it - but if you are, I would like to know. Whenever you post, I "know" you, but I don't "know" you - you don't give me much help in that arena though!
Q: How many pairs of uggs do you have and what color ( i am a serious ugg lover)
A: Just one. Pair of plain tan "classics". I almost got the dark chocolate brown, but in the store, I wasn't too impressed.
Q: If you could have any handbag in existence what would it be?
A: You know, I would love to have an answer, as I ~love~ handbags, but I don't. Because most handbags are completely out of my reach, I don't focus on them. I have an arsenal of Coach bags, but that's because they are relatively cheap - the designer handbag of the poor. I can tell you, however, I ~will~ buy a pair of christian louboutin heels before I turn 40.
Q: What do you think of someone wanting only one child?
A: I think that's completely fine and a personal choice. Although I think a child can have a good time growing up with a sibling, I don't think it's necessary.
Q: What is the part of your body you hate the most and what part do you love?
A: I hate my muffin top. My lord, when did my love handles get so bad? Ugh. Hate them. I love my boobs. I've never been able to love those before, so I'm taking advantage.
And really, thanks for supporting me today. As the day has worn on, I've gotten more at peace with knowing in my heart that I simply still have the trigger in my system. Although I want more than anything for it to be from a baby growing in there, all signs point to trigger. It's still not all lost, of course, it's only 10dpIUI - I don't start giving up hope until BFNs at 12dpo. I still have a good two days of hope in me!
With no further ado ... (had to look that one up. I typed "ado", but then thought it was "adieu". Both real words, but "ado" is the right on)
Q: What did you do to stop your fish from being mean to me after that first visit? Or was it their idea all on their own?
A: I had a stern talking with them.
Q: What is your relationship with your in-laws like?
A: Really good. His dad still mystifies me at times - I sometimes think he doesn't like me, but then I guess that's just his personality. I love them both though. Cool, eh?
Q: When getting dressed in the morning, do you put your left sock or your right sock on first (assuming you are wearing socks)?
A: left first.
Q: When getting undressed, do you take your left sock or your right sock off first?
A: left again.
Q: Same questions as above, but in regard to which pant leg goes on and off first.
A: I actually had to stand up and pretend to take off my pants. Left yet again.
Q: What kind of tree would you be and what would you think of being pruned?
A: One of those pink blossoming trees. I don't know what they are called. Maybe crab apple? heh. And totally no pun intended with the "crab" part. I would like to be pruned because all the dead stuff would be cut away, allowing the best growth out of me.
Q: What kind of animal would you be and, if you lived in a zoo, would you feel oppressed or be delighted that you got your basic needs taken care of without any effort AND got to watch a parade of goofy humans visiting almost every day?
A: I'd be a hippo. They looks so peaceful yet they are fucking hardcore. I'd be hyped about having everything taken care of, but the loss of freedom? I don't know if it would make up for it. I think of it as being a "kept woman" and having everything I want given to me, but not being able to go do what I'd want. I'd rather be poor and free than rich in prison.
Q: What activity do you like so much and think others are missing out on to great detriment that you actively promote it? (Besides the obvious, sex, roller derby, etc).
A: Regularly scheduled massages.
Q: What do you think is the most under-rated food?
A: The egg.
Q: The most over-rated food?
A: Caviar. Although kind of seems like I'm countering my last answer because this is an egg too, but this is a gross egg. Balls of fish juice. Ick.
Q: As an alternative to the books question, what 3 movies would you take to a desert island, and why?
A: Fight club cause it's bad ass. Office space cause it's funny. A christmas story because it wouldn't ever feel like Christmas without it (even on a desert island).
Q: What person have you lost contact with that you are most curious about?
A: Jason and/or Damian. And Jill and Scout.
Q: If you got a chance to name a mountain after yourself, which would it be? Which river?
A: Don't know. I'm not into geography, so I don't know mountains/rivers enough to answer.
Q: When's your wedding anniversary, and why did you choose that date?
A: July 14th. We wanted a summer wedding and that's just the date that things worked out for.
Q: If you could learn how to make the best ever any kind of food, meal, or dish, what would you want to be the best cook of?
A: Sushi.
Q: What is the worst thing you ever did in school?
A: Hrm. Tie. In high school, I walked out of my french class and threw my book on the teacher's foot. In college, I slept through my very last final of my senior year because I was drunk.
Q: If you could be best friends with any president-- past, present,or prospective; living or dead-- who would it be? Why?
A: Another one I can't really answer. I'm not into politics nor history. (man, some of these questions are so good and I look like an idiot by not having answers!)
Q: If you owned your own business, what would it be in?
A: Something that would change someone's life for the better. I think RE's have the coolest job to be able to give children to some women who would otherwise not have them. I would want to do something that life altering.
Q: If you had to lose a limb or organ, which would you give up and why?
A: Oh boy. What a question! A limb? What is the definition of a limb? Just arms/legs? I guess I would choose a leg. I would lose out on some ways to get around, but I could make due with one leg. What I wouldn't want to lose is most of my sense of "touch", which is felt through the hands.
Q: What kind of car do you drive?
A: A mom car. A ford freestyle. But as I look at Ford, looks like they've replaced it with this. The top picture looks like my car.
Q: A FNP prescribes 100mg of prometrium to be taken CD 15-28. Patient started the pill on CD 24 (or Tuesday), they will be taken until CD28 which is Saturday. On Monday patient has to start BCP again. Typical cycle length is 29 days. Prometrium was prescribed because FNP think the progesterone level is too low for the amount of estrogen in one's body- blood test results aren't back to prove what actual levels are yet. Will one's menses be delayed due to the progesterone, and that in combination with starting the bcp 1.5 days later, will that cause BTB, or just a funky late menses?
A: Whoa. I'm not an RE, so I can't even begin to tell you! But why would someone go on progesterone if birth control pills were going to start to be taken anyway? What would be the point? Without birth control pills, I can say that progesterone ~can~ delay start of AF, but not always. If the levels are high enough to fool body, it can be delayed. Or not. On each treatment cycle, I'm on 200mg of progesterone for my entire LP and I always end up getting AF. But given birth control pills, that's going to rise estrogen levels too, so it would probably fool the body into thinking AF shouldn't come, so I would guess that a combination of bcp ~and~ progesterone would keep AF at bay. But again, I'm not a doctor.
Q: What's your favorite movie and why?
A: I'm really into fight club again. It's really a complex movie.
Q: tell us about the contents of you cereal cabinet.
A: heh. Lucky charms, fruity cheerios, fiber one, fiber one flakes. That's it!
Q: If you could have any super powers what would it be and why.
A: The ability to stop time - but being able to bring anyone into my "time stop" with me. No fun by myself.
Q: Can AF start while you are taking progestrone supplements?
A: This is a reoccurring question. Yes, it can.
Q: What kind of toothpaste do you use?
A: Crest.
Q: Have you ever been a smoker (cigarettes)? If so, do you still crave one every once in awhile?
A: Yes, I was in high school and for a short time after college. Nope, I don't crave them.
Q: Have you always wanted three children or has this number materialized over time?
A: I had gone into this wanting two. But when #2 was still in my belly, hubby said he wanted another and I agreed. Since then, I've wanted three. I don't know if it's because he said he wanted one or if I would of made that choice given the time to make it.
Q: How many siblings do you have (not including IL's) and what are the age/sex of each?
A: 4 brothers and 1 sister. Brothers are: 15 yrs older, 13 yrs older, 10 yrs older and 8 months older (half brother). Sister is 7 years older.
Q: Do you have pets?
A: 2 cats. 1 tortoise. Lots of fish (including a frog).
Q: How old was Ella the first time you left her with someone else overnight? How did you feel about it? Was it easier with Allie the first time you left her overnight since you'd done it before?
A: I honestly don't remember how old Ella was. Wow, I can't believe I don't remember. It was with my mother though and it wasn't a big deal to me. I had pumped enough breastmilk for her to eat. With Allie, she was 3 months old and again, easy. No, it wasn't "easier" as I never had a hard time with it. I think it's very important to be able to have a life away from your children - a way to keep you as YOU. I am ~not~ just "mother of two girls". I'm also "Nancy". I don't want to be away from them a lot, but I am happy I can be away once in awhile.
Q: How do you do it all? I work don't have children and I feel like pulling out my hair sometimes trying to keep up with laundry and dishes. How do you manage work, being a mommy, keeping your house in one piece and keeping a spark in your marriage?
A: It all comes on you slowly. Had you picked me up when I was single or even newly married and dumped me into this life, I'd never of survived.
Q: You're really outgoing on line and it sounds like that carries over IRL. Is your husband really outgoing too or is he shy?
A: You know, he seems shy/quiet when you first meet him. But given the opportunity for him to get comfortable, he's just as outgoing as I am.
Q: Would you mind reading this post and providing input? I know you're in HR and I thought maybe you'd have an opinion on whether my interpretation of the whole job offer thing holds water. I know you're not in the same state and I don't expect you to research anything. I just want to know what your instinct says.
A: I got a bachelor's degree in Business Management, focusing in Human Resources in 1995. I worked in HR from 1995-1997. Since then, I haven't been back. And I also never focused in labor laws. I don't know what kind of position of them being 'bankrupt' does to your job offer. Yeah, they promised you a salary, but if the company goes under, I don't know if that gets them out of it. I would definitely call your state's Department of Labor office and ask them what to do. They can give you the real deal. Totally sounds crappy though - they aren't letting you go so you don't have a way to collect unemployment, but they aren't offering to pay you for any hours worked. It's obviously a joke, like you said it was. Ugh. That sucks. Sorry!
Q: do you know of me or am i just random to you?
A: Well, I know you from the fact you've been commenting to me for a very long time - from my first blog! But since you never link to your own stuff, I don't really know "you". I've gathered some info over the timeframe, but not enough for me to be able to tell lots back to you. If you are someone I "knew" from another forum, I'm not aware of it - but if you are, I would like to know. Whenever you post, I "know" you, but I don't "know" you - you don't give me much help in that arena though!
Q: How many pairs of uggs do you have and what color ( i am a serious ugg lover)
A: Just one. Pair of plain tan "classics". I almost got the dark chocolate brown, but in the store, I wasn't too impressed.
Q: If you could have any handbag in existence what would it be?
A: You know, I would love to have an answer, as I ~love~ handbags, but I don't. Because most handbags are completely out of my reach, I don't focus on them. I have an arsenal of Coach bags, but that's because they are relatively cheap - the designer handbag of the poor. I can tell you, however, I ~will~ buy a pair of christian louboutin heels before I turn 40.
Q: What do you think of someone wanting only one child?
A: I think that's completely fine and a personal choice. Although I think a child can have a good time growing up with a sibling, I don't think it's necessary.
Q: What is the part of your body you hate the most and what part do you love?
A: I hate my muffin top. My lord, when did my love handles get so bad? Ugh. Hate them. I love my boobs. I've never been able to love those before, so I'm taking advantage.
Questions and Answers
Here is a list I'll just keep updating as the day proceeds. As I get a new comment from my last post, I'll list them here. PLEASE READ THE POST BELOW THIS ONE!
(and, by the way, you guys RULE for helping me out today!!)
Q: how did your husband propose to you. . .how did you meet?
A: We met in the most romantic place on earth. A bar. He proposed on the peak of a mountain, while snowboarding in Breckenridge. We just got off the lift and made our way over to an off-map run the locals call "never never land", a tree run. He told me something was wrong with his binding, so I stopped. He took off his snowboard and before I knew it, he's on one knee with a ring box in his hand. I sat there, snowboard strapped on, goggles and a big helmet bobble head. Being proposed to. It was awesome.
Q: What is your dream vacation?
A: Anything involving a warm sandy beach. I love the ocean, more than anything else in the world. I would like to go somewhere exotic, like tahiti or a place like that.
Q: What is your biggest pet peeve dealing with driving?
A: People in the fast lane who don't move over when you come up behind them.
Q: If you were given 24 hours to move from your home, where would you move? It could be anywhere in the world as long as you have NOT lived there before.
A: Boston. (I wouldn't want to live overseas, so this is a boring answer!)
Q: Tell us about how you & hubs met, please?
A: Since already asked, I'll answer a bit more. We had seen each other at this particular bar a few times about a year previous to our actual official meeting. We had played pool against each other, but we both had a boyfriend/girlfriend, so nothing was ever said. We did think each other was "cute" though. So when he walked in that night, everything fell into place. Except for the fact the reason I hadn't seen him for the previous year was he was living in texas! He was moving back in four months though. So, after an amazing weekend together (yeah, I'm easy), he asked "so what now?". I took a chance and said "In a perfect world, we'll wait for each other over the next for months and when you come back, we'll be together." He agreed! Over the next 2 weeks, we talked a handful of times on the phone, but not much. We're both not huge phone talkers. Well, two weeks later, I get a call from him telling me "We have to talk. I have to go to work now, but I was hoping you'll be home tonight so I can call." Uh-oh. Here it comes. 2 weeks and he's already done waiting. I wait and wait that night, no call. Then my doorbell rings. There he was, standing there in front of his little car packed with all his stuff. He said he put in his two weeks notice the day he got back to Texas from seeing me. That was 10 years ago next month. We haven't been apart since.
Q: What is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you?
A: Back in high school, I dated a guy who had a kid. (awesome, eh?). Well, being so young, his mother adopted the child so he was her biological father and her adoptive brother. They lived in a small house so he had to share a room with her (fair in my eyes). We were in the room, doing what horny teenage kids do (remember, I said I was easy) and right in the middle of it, his mother walked in, carrying his sleeping daughter. Imagine the position I was in, literally. We was on top, I was half hanging off the bed, so I was looking at her upside down. My leg was up in the air and he was holding my ankle up in the air. Good lord. His mother stopped and we stopped. She just looked at us a moment, shook her head, and proceeded to lay the baby down in her crib. She then walked out and shut the door. It took me a good 2 hours to come out of the room. I had to pass the living room to get out. She stopped us for "the talk". She says the common "there will be none of that under my roof!" and he asks back "what about in the backyard?". Oh. My. God. I thought I was going to die.
Q: How do you explain colors, excluding black and white, and what they look like to a blind person that has been blind all his life?
A: Oh boy. This one will keep me pondering. In fact, I've thought about this before and never had an answer. I would probably try to use sensations that the blind person does have, like touch. IE: red being a hot color.
Q: What was your first tattoo? Any special meaning to it? If you had to do it over, would you get that one again?
A: It was the one on my lower back - I think the most popular place for any 18 year old girl. No special meaning, although I did scour book after book for the perfect design. It's an intricate design with vines. And yes, I would get that one again. Although I would have made it go closer to m hips instead of how 'short' it is. Since I got bigger as I got older, my love handles look even bigger because of the tattoo.
Q: At a recent birthday party there were four mothers and their children. aged 1, 2, 3 and 4. From the clues below can you work out whose child is whose and their relevant ages? It was Jane's child's birthday party. Brian is not the oldest child. Sarah had Anne just over a year ago. Laura's child will be 3 next birthday. Daniel is older than Charlie. Teresa's child is the oldest. Charlie is older than Laura's child.
A: Sarah's child, Ann, is one. Laura's child, Brian, is two. Jane's child, Charlie, is 3. Theresa's child, Daniel, is 4.
Q: Any progress on that "circles of equal angle" problem?
A: No. And I suspect there never will be.
(Holy crap. Sarah r rules! She asked 13 questions!)
Q: What is your middle name?
A: I have two. Alice Ann.
Q: Are you the oldest, middle, or youngest in your family?
A: I'm the baby!
Q: What was your worst job ever?
A: Cleaning the bathrooms in a warehouse - the ones that the "truckers" would use. I have nothing against truckers, but good lord, I've never seen nastier urinals ever. (I cleaned others throughout the building. I did the general cleaning for a cleaning supplies outlet over a summer.) I don't understand how so much hair ended up in there. Maybe they were all hot/sweaty from sitting down and driving all day, so when they did get up to pee, they scratched a lot.
Q: When you put your jacket on, do you hold onto the sleeves so they don't slide up differently than the jacket sleeves?
A: ~totally~. (trigs) And my 3 yr old does it too. Awesome.
Q: What is your favorite Subway sandwich (if you eat there)?
A: Chicken breast, white american cheese, white bread, mustard, a teeny bit of mayo, lettuce, pickles, salad peppers, tomatoes, spinach leaves, cucumbers and salt & pepper.
Q: Do you like the toilet paper to roll from the top or the bottom?
A: Like any female - from the top!
Q: Do you organize your clothes in your closet according to color?
A: They don't stay that way, but yes. And my long/short sleeves too.
Q: What outfit are you wearing today?
A: Olive green cords, white vneck knit shirt, green tank top underneath so I don't look like a whore at work showing my cleavage and my uggs (can't wear any other shoes yet due to my broken foot).
Q: What's the weather like right now where you live?
A: A little chilly due to wind, but sunny. 34 degrees with a wind chill of 23.
Q: Do you wear contacts?
A: Nope.
Q: If I opened your fridge, what would I find the most of?
A: Fruits & Veggies.
Q: Does it drive you nuts when people chew on their pens?
A: Not really - as long as they are quiet about it. But clicking it over and over does. (I'm annoyed by sounds)
Q: Do you like your ice cream in a dish or a cone?
A: I like it in a cone.
Q: What would the soundtrack to your life story be? Minimum of 6 songs.
A: Oh god. I have no idea. I will come back to this one. Let me work on it.
Q: If you were a country, which country would you be? (from a text message from my friend Laurel)
A: You know, I don't know enough about the politics/social aspects of other countries to answer this. Maybe Canada so I can think I'm better than anyone else. (love ya my canadian friends!)
Q: Who is the person you are most "hiding out" from talking to and why? Bonus question for extra credit: What would it be like for you and for them if you took on having the conversation you are avoiding?
A: You. Because you and I don't have the same type of coping mechanisms. When I am trying to stay grounded yet hold onto hope, I don't want you to tell me in so many words: "No matter what you do, you aren't going to allow yourself to find anything that proves the answer you don't want to find, right."
Q: As a public service, what objective standard can you propose for how hard to close a car door, such that it is not taken as "slamming"?
A: If, while sitting inside the car, the door being closed is so loud as to make me jump, that's too hard. No more pressure than the minimum pressure necessary to close a door should be used. Anything above and beyond said pressure is what I consider "slamming".
Q: Have you ever "thanked" an inanimate object for doing something it did well? (For example, thanking a Band-Aid for doing a good job before tossing it into the trash.) If you did, did it make you feel better or stupid after you did it?
A: I commonly thank my car for getting me home after a scary drive home through icy or snowy streets. And it makes me feel better after I do it.
(Whoa. Miss Katarina Jelly Beana is asking a lot too!)
Q: How did you get into roller derby? Did you watch it as a kid on ESPN afterschool like I did?
A: Although I did used to watch it on tv, I actually joined because I felt old. I had just turned 35 and my mother turned 70 a few weeks prior. On my birthday, she kept saying "you are half my age! you are half my age!" and I couldn't believe I was half way to 70! When I saw the flier for open recruit night, I made the decision to go.
Q: If you were trapped on a desert island and could only take 3 books with you, what would they be?
A: I honestly don't know. I read, but I read mystery books, so I don't ever read them twice. I'm trying to think of a book I've read twice and I never had I believe. How much do I suck? I've never read the classics.
Q: Chocolate or vanilla?
A: Vanilla. Although I do like chocolate syrup on top.
Q: Favorite childhood memory?
A: My dad used to play Pink Floyd on the record player and tell me stories about exploring space or some other crazy kind of thing. Although the stories sometimes scared me, I'll never forget how much I loved listening to him.
Q: If you could change one thing about your husband, what would it be?
A: I'd wish that he would be able to conquer his fear of going back to school, so he could try to get his dream job. It's not about the money, because he'd actually be making less than what he makes now, but I want him to be happy.
Q: Would you want to see Spam made?
A: Yeah. But only after they "meat" is collected. I wouldn't want to see that.
Q: Pretend you're in Hell. In your mind, who would be doing an infinity run on the mainstage in Hell...and you have a permanently reserved table up front?
A: Rush.
Q: If you could resurrect any tv series and have it continue with its original brilliance, what would it be?
A: 60 on the Sunset Strip.
Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: Did I? Or do I? I ~wanted~ to be an architect and then an anesthesiologist. I want to be a chemist.
Q: Name 3 reasons why today is great that have nothing to do with temperature, urine or uteri.
A: 1) Since I've gained a bit of my weight back, my pants haven't been fitting too great. But this morning, I found an old pair and they fit great. And I like them. 2) It's my first day back to work with eyebrows that aren't growing out of control because I finally got them waxed last night. 3) The house in cleaned, the dishes are done. Tonight's schedule includes rest and relaxation without worrying about any chores to be done.
Q: Have you ever sent anything to that guy who has that "send my your secrets" website? If so, what was it?
A: Nope. But if I did, I would be breaking the rules of sending in a secret, since it has to be a secret you've ~never~ told anyone. (postsecret.blogspot.com for those of you who have never seen this)
Q: Ok, child number 3 girl or boy, which would you prefer or is there no preference?
A: I want a girl because I already have two girls and none of it will be a surprise to me. Plus, everything I own for children are girl things. Adding in a boy will totally be more expensive. But, hubby really wants a boy, so I do want a boy for him.
Q: What was your absolute favorite birthday gift?
A: The birth of my second daughter, Allison. I didn't have her on my birthday, but labor started that day, so I knew she was on her way. It's like she told me she was coming to meet me for my birthday. (I could have done without 3 days of labor though)
Q: What is your favorite season and why?
A: I like summer. I love warm summer rain. I love to be able to do things outside without bundling up. I love to feel the heat on my skin. Plus, it means I can go to the ocean!
Q: I'd like to know what are your 3 biggest fears in life. Are they different then ten years ago?
A: 1. Anything happening to my children. 2. Anything happening to me because of my children. 3. Anything happening to my husband, because of my children. And yes, totally different. 10 years ago I was more afraid of failing at something - losing my job, house, etc. But now all my priorities have changed to completely revolve around them.
Q: What was your favorite time period of your life?
A: Honestly, the past 4 years. Due to the children.
Q: What kind of animal would you want to be? And why?
A: Housecat. Easy live and lots of love.
Q: Have you ever had sex outside?
A: Yup.
Q: Do you already have the 'big sex talk' planned out for when your kids are older?
A: Not planned, but I'll definitely have it.
Q: What's the farthest you've ever been from home?
A: Mazatlan, Mexico.
Q: Since you are an adopted Irishwoman, how do you celebrate St. Patrick's Day?
A: Our friends put on a huge st patty's day party each year. But that's on the weekend around the day. ON St patty's day, we fly to wherever Flogging Molly is playing to see them. This year it's Tempe, AZ, as it was last year.
Q: I'm sorry, the only question I can think of is when will you be convinced that a BFP on a test is Real? (That is if they are to stay positive) 11dpo? 12dpo? Will 14dpo be enough for you?
A: If darker tomorrow, I'll definitely believe it. If still light tomorrow, it'll be a toss up, so I'll have to wait until blood test on 12dpo because my RE said the trigger would be out by then.
Q: Who are your Heroes and why?
A: My heroes are all women who have gone through infertility. But mostly, it's the women who have tried for years, only to fail - but still being able to go one with their lives. I was serious when I said I was inspired by the women who have come to the conclusion they are living childfree. It's one of the most touching things I have ever encountered.
Q: If you won 1 million dollars, what would you do with it?
A: Too bad a million bucks isn't that great anymore. I would invest half of it, only to use interest when I wanted to. The other half would go to an appropriate sized house for the family and of course, a spending spree for anything I wanted. Although I would try to only get things we'd actually use, not getting crazy with it. Maybe try to find a small house by the beach. It wouldn't get me a lot, but I bet I could find something within a few miles of the beach.
Q: Would your answer be different if you won 10 million dollars? and why?
A: Yup. Cause I'd find a bigger house near a better beach!
(and, by the way, you guys RULE for helping me out today!!)
Q: how did your husband propose to you. . .how did you meet?
A: We met in the most romantic place on earth. A bar. He proposed on the peak of a mountain, while snowboarding in Breckenridge. We just got off the lift and made our way over to an off-map run the locals call "never never land", a tree run. He told me something was wrong with his binding, so I stopped. He took off his snowboard and before I knew it, he's on one knee with a ring box in his hand. I sat there, snowboard strapped on, goggles and a big helmet bobble head. Being proposed to. It was awesome.
Q: What is your dream vacation?
A: Anything involving a warm sandy beach. I love the ocean, more than anything else in the world. I would like to go somewhere exotic, like tahiti or a place like that.
Q: What is your biggest pet peeve dealing with driving?
A: People in the fast lane who don't move over when you come up behind them.
Q: If you were given 24 hours to move from your home, where would you move? It could be anywhere in the world as long as you have NOT lived there before.
A: Boston. (I wouldn't want to live overseas, so this is a boring answer!)
Q: Tell us about how you & hubs met, please?
A: Since already asked, I'll answer a bit more. We had seen each other at this particular bar a few times about a year previous to our actual official meeting. We had played pool against each other, but we both had a boyfriend/girlfriend, so nothing was ever said. We did think each other was "cute" though. So when he walked in that night, everything fell into place. Except for the fact the reason I hadn't seen him for the previous year was he was living in texas! He was moving back in four months though. So, after an amazing weekend together (yeah, I'm easy), he asked "so what now?". I took a chance and said "In a perfect world, we'll wait for each other over the next for months and when you come back, we'll be together." He agreed! Over the next 2 weeks, we talked a handful of times on the phone, but not much. We're both not huge phone talkers. Well, two weeks later, I get a call from him telling me "We have to talk. I have to go to work now, but I was hoping you'll be home tonight so I can call." Uh-oh. Here it comes. 2 weeks and he's already done waiting. I wait and wait that night, no call. Then my doorbell rings. There he was, standing there in front of his little car packed with all his stuff. He said he put in his two weeks notice the day he got back to Texas from seeing me. That was 10 years ago next month. We haven't been apart since.
Q: What is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you?
A: Back in high school, I dated a guy who had a kid. (awesome, eh?). Well, being so young, his mother adopted the child so he was her biological father and her adoptive brother. They lived in a small house so he had to share a room with her (fair in my eyes). We were in the room, doing what horny teenage kids do (remember, I said I was easy) and right in the middle of it, his mother walked in, carrying his sleeping daughter. Imagine the position I was in, literally. We was on top, I was half hanging off the bed, so I was looking at her upside down. My leg was up in the air and he was holding my ankle up in the air. Good lord. His mother stopped and we stopped. She just looked at us a moment, shook her head, and proceeded to lay the baby down in her crib. She then walked out and shut the door. It took me a good 2 hours to come out of the room. I had to pass the living room to get out. She stopped us for "the talk". She says the common "there will be none of that under my roof!" and he asks back "what about in the backyard?". Oh. My. God. I thought I was going to die.
Q: How do you explain colors, excluding black and white, and what they look like to a blind person that has been blind all his life?
A: Oh boy. This one will keep me pondering. In fact, I've thought about this before and never had an answer. I would probably try to use sensations that the blind person does have, like touch. IE: red being a hot color.
Q: What was your first tattoo? Any special meaning to it? If you had to do it over, would you get that one again?
A: It was the one on my lower back - I think the most popular place for any 18 year old girl. No special meaning, although I did scour book after book for the perfect design. It's an intricate design with vines. And yes, I would get that one again. Although I would have made it go closer to m hips instead of how 'short' it is. Since I got bigger as I got older, my love handles look even bigger because of the tattoo.
Q: At a recent birthday party there were four mothers and their children. aged 1, 2, 3 and 4. From the clues below can you work out whose child is whose and their relevant ages? It was Jane's child's birthday party. Brian is not the oldest child. Sarah had Anne just over a year ago. Laura's child will be 3 next birthday. Daniel is older than Charlie. Teresa's child is the oldest. Charlie is older than Laura's child.
A: Sarah's child, Ann, is one. Laura's child, Brian, is two. Jane's child, Charlie, is 3. Theresa's child, Daniel, is 4.
Q: Any progress on that "circles of equal angle" problem?
A: No. And I suspect there never will be.
(Holy crap. Sarah r rules! She asked 13 questions!)
Q: What is your middle name?
A: I have two. Alice Ann.
Q: Are you the oldest, middle, or youngest in your family?
A: I'm the baby!
Q: What was your worst job ever?
A: Cleaning the bathrooms in a warehouse - the ones that the "truckers" would use. I have nothing against truckers, but good lord, I've never seen nastier urinals ever. (I cleaned others throughout the building. I did the general cleaning for a cleaning supplies outlet over a summer.) I don't understand how so much hair ended up in there. Maybe they were all hot/sweaty from sitting down and driving all day, so when they did get up to pee, they scratched a lot.
Q: When you put your jacket on, do you hold onto the sleeves so they don't slide up differently than the jacket sleeves?
A: ~totally~. (trigs) And my 3 yr old does it too. Awesome.
Q: What is your favorite Subway sandwich (if you eat there)?
A: Chicken breast, white american cheese, white bread, mustard, a teeny bit of mayo, lettuce, pickles, salad peppers, tomatoes, spinach leaves, cucumbers and salt & pepper.
Q: Do you like the toilet paper to roll from the top or the bottom?
A: Like any female - from the top!
Q: Do you organize your clothes in your closet according to color?
A: They don't stay that way, but yes. And my long/short sleeves too.
Q: What outfit are you wearing today?
A: Olive green cords, white vneck knit shirt, green tank top underneath so I don't look like a whore at work showing my cleavage and my uggs (can't wear any other shoes yet due to my broken foot).
Q: What's the weather like right now where you live?
A: A little chilly due to wind, but sunny. 34 degrees with a wind chill of 23.
Q: Do you wear contacts?
A: Nope.
Q: If I opened your fridge, what would I find the most of?
A: Fruits & Veggies.
Q: Does it drive you nuts when people chew on their pens?
A: Not really - as long as they are quiet about it. But clicking it over and over does. (I'm annoyed by sounds)
Q: Do you like your ice cream in a dish or a cone?
A: I like it in a cone.
Q: What would the soundtrack to your life story be? Minimum of 6 songs.
A: Oh god. I have no idea. I will come back to this one. Let me work on it.
Q: If you were a country, which country would you be? (from a text message from my friend Laurel)
A: You know, I don't know enough about the politics/social aspects of other countries to answer this. Maybe Canada so I can think I'm better than anyone else. (love ya my canadian friends!)
Q: Who is the person you are most "hiding out" from talking to and why? Bonus question for extra credit: What would it be like for you and for them if you took on having the conversation you are avoiding?
A: You. Because you and I don't have the same type of coping mechanisms. When I am trying to stay grounded yet hold onto hope, I don't want you to tell me in so many words: "No matter what you do, you aren't going to allow yourself to find anything that proves the answer you don't want to find, right."
Q: As a public service, what objective standard can you propose for how hard to close a car door, such that it is not taken as "slamming"?
A: If, while sitting inside the car, the door being closed is so loud as to make me jump, that's too hard. No more pressure than the minimum pressure necessary to close a door should be used. Anything above and beyond said pressure is what I consider "slamming".
Q: Have you ever "thanked" an inanimate object for doing something it did well? (For example, thanking a Band-Aid for doing a good job before tossing it into the trash.) If you did, did it make you feel better or stupid after you did it?
A: I commonly thank my car for getting me home after a scary drive home through icy or snowy streets. And it makes me feel better after I do it.
(Whoa. Miss Katarina Jelly Beana is asking a lot too!)
Q: How did you get into roller derby? Did you watch it as a kid on ESPN afterschool like I did?
A: Although I did used to watch it on tv, I actually joined because I felt old. I had just turned 35 and my mother turned 70 a few weeks prior. On my birthday, she kept saying "you are half my age! you are half my age!" and I couldn't believe I was half way to 70! When I saw the flier for open recruit night, I made the decision to go.
Q: If you were trapped on a desert island and could only take 3 books with you, what would they be?
A: I honestly don't know. I read, but I read mystery books, so I don't ever read them twice. I'm trying to think of a book I've read twice and I never had I believe. How much do I suck? I've never read the classics.
Q: Chocolate or vanilla?
A: Vanilla. Although I do like chocolate syrup on top.
Q: Favorite childhood memory?
A: My dad used to play Pink Floyd on the record player and tell me stories about exploring space or some other crazy kind of thing. Although the stories sometimes scared me, I'll never forget how much I loved listening to him.
Q: If you could change one thing about your husband, what would it be?
A: I'd wish that he would be able to conquer his fear of going back to school, so he could try to get his dream job. It's not about the money, because he'd actually be making less than what he makes now, but I want him to be happy.
Q: Would you want to see Spam made?
A: Yeah. But only after they "meat" is collected. I wouldn't want to see that.
Q: Pretend you're in Hell. In your mind, who would be doing an infinity run on the mainstage in Hell...and you have a permanently reserved table up front?
A: Rush.
Q: If you could resurrect any tv series and have it continue with its original brilliance, what would it be?
A: 60 on the Sunset Strip.
Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: Did I? Or do I? I ~wanted~ to be an architect and then an anesthesiologist. I want to be a chemist.
Q: Name 3 reasons why today is great that have nothing to do with temperature, urine or uteri.
A: 1) Since I've gained a bit of my weight back, my pants haven't been fitting too great. But this morning, I found an old pair and they fit great. And I like them. 2) It's my first day back to work with eyebrows that aren't growing out of control because I finally got them waxed last night. 3) The house in cleaned, the dishes are done. Tonight's schedule includes rest and relaxation without worrying about any chores to be done.
Q: Have you ever sent anything to that guy who has that "send my your secrets" website? If so, what was it?
A: Nope. But if I did, I would be breaking the rules of sending in a secret, since it has to be a secret you've ~never~ told anyone. (postsecret.blogspot.com for those of you who have never seen this)
Q: Ok, child number 3 girl or boy, which would you prefer or is there no preference?
A: I want a girl because I already have two girls and none of it will be a surprise to me. Plus, everything I own for children are girl things. Adding in a boy will totally be more expensive. But, hubby really wants a boy, so I do want a boy for him.
Q: What was your absolute favorite birthday gift?
A: The birth of my second daughter, Allison. I didn't have her on my birthday, but labor started that day, so I knew she was on her way. It's like she told me she was coming to meet me for my birthday. (I could have done without 3 days of labor though)
Q: What is your favorite season and why?
A: I like summer. I love warm summer rain. I love to be able to do things outside without bundling up. I love to feel the heat on my skin. Plus, it means I can go to the ocean!
Q: I'd like to know what are your 3 biggest fears in life. Are they different then ten years ago?
A: 1. Anything happening to my children. 2. Anything happening to me because of my children. 3. Anything happening to my husband, because of my children. And yes, totally different. 10 years ago I was more afraid of failing at something - losing my job, house, etc. But now all my priorities have changed to completely revolve around them.
Q: What was your favorite time period of your life?
A: Honestly, the past 4 years. Due to the children.
Q: What kind of animal would you want to be? And why?
A: Housecat. Easy live and lots of love.
Q: Have you ever had sex outside?
A: Yup.
Q: Do you already have the 'big sex talk' planned out for when your kids are older?
A: Not planned, but I'll definitely have it.
Q: What's the farthest you've ever been from home?
A: Mazatlan, Mexico.
Q: Since you are an adopted Irishwoman, how do you celebrate St. Patrick's Day?
A: Our friends put on a huge st patty's day party each year. But that's on the weekend around the day. ON St patty's day, we fly to wherever Flogging Molly is playing to see them. This year it's Tempe, AZ, as it was last year.
Q: I'm sorry, the only question I can think of is when will you be convinced that a BFP on a test is Real? (That is if they are to stay positive) 11dpo? 12dpo? Will 14dpo be enough for you?
A: If darker tomorrow, I'll definitely believe it. If still light tomorrow, it'll be a toss up, so I'll have to wait until blood test on 12dpo because my RE said the trigger would be out by then.
Q: Who are your Heroes and why?
A: My heroes are all women who have gone through infertility. But mostly, it's the women who have tried for years, only to fail - but still being able to go one with their lives. I was serious when I said I was inspired by the women who have come to the conclusion they are living childfree. It's one of the most touching things I have ever encountered.
Q: If you won 1 million dollars, what would you do with it?
A: Too bad a million bucks isn't that great anymore. I would invest half of it, only to use interest when I wanted to. The other half would go to an appropriate sized house for the family and of course, a spending spree for anything I wanted. Although I would try to only get things we'd actually use, not getting crazy with it. Maybe try to find a small house by the beach. It wouldn't get me a lot, but I bet I could find something within a few miles of the beach.
Q: Would your answer be different if you won 10 million dollars? and why?
A: Yup. Cause I'd find a bigger house near a better beach!
Girls (and guys), today is "help Nancy out" day.
I need a distraction. I need to stop looking at a chart that could mean nothing. I need to stop thinking about bfps that could mean nothing.
So, I declare today "Help Nancy Out" day. I ask each one of you to ask me a question. Any question. Any strange off hand question. Any personal question. Any mundane question.
ASK ME ANYTHING.
And when I say "you", I mean YOU. Yeah - you - reading this right now. I don't care if you've never ever commented before. I don't care if you don't even like me and you read my blog just to find new ways to hate me. You don't have to leave your name. Be anonymous if you want. Just ask me a question.
I'm setting myself up right now too. If no one asks me anything, I'm going to feel like a gigantic dork. So please, ask me a question.
So, I declare today "Help Nancy Out" day. I ask each one of you to ask me a question. Any question. Any strange off hand question. Any personal question. Any mundane question.
ASK ME ANYTHING.
And when I say "you", I mean YOU. Yeah - you - reading this right now. I don't care if you've never ever commented before. I don't care if you don't even like me and you read my blog just to find new ways to hate me. You don't have to leave your name. Be anonymous if you want. Just ask me a question.
I'm setting myself up right now too. If no one asks me anything, I'm going to feel like a gigantic dork. So please, ask me a question.
10dpIUI updates (now with confession!)
My chart is beautiful. It's my first official "triphasic" chart ever. (but if you would read the link, you'll see that although promising, it also can mean absolutely dick). I've gotten close to having one before, but my temp moved up to the next level before 8dpo. It's the first time I've had FF say "Implantation Signs: Possibly Triphasic on Day 28".
My poas odyssey shows another light bfp. Remember folks, I got the hcg trigger twice this cycle. The first was 6,666 UIs day before ovulation and the second was 3,334 UIs 5 days past ovulation. Yeah, the last time I got LP support hcg shots and the last one was at 6 days past ovulation showing a bfn on 10dpo is neither here nor there. This cycle I have not been able to pee a negative yet, so nothing means anything. Except that my hpt is totally most likely trigger shot still in my system.
So that's that.
Okay, that's not that.
I remembered I had two digital tests in my sock drawer. Yes, yes, I know what I said about digitals. But I did ~not~ buy them. A girl at work gave them to me once she used the first one out of the 3 pack to determine she was pregnant on her first cycle trying. (bitter much nance?) Well, I figure "hey, since these internet cheapies suck, I'll try one that says it only detects 25-50 UIs of hcg and that will tell me". So I dig one out, pee on it (hrm, not FMU, but I still hadn't had anything to drink and I hadn't peed for almost 2 hours) and wait. Damn, those things take awhile to show up. There's no peeking before the 3 minutes up on these tests! A few minutes later and I see "pregnant". What a neat thing to see.
Then the rational part of my brain wakes back up and says "wait a minute, we have just determined there is, indeed, hcg in your system. And we have no idea if it is or if it isn't from the trigger. So why the hell did you just waste another test? It's not like the digitals only pick up natural hcg and not trigger!" So yes, I'm a confessed moron. But, it WAS, in fact, cool to see "pregnant" on a digital test. I may have to change my mind on those (but only after confirmation so "pregnant" actually means "pregnant".
And, if you've been a reader since last October, you'll remember the trigger of October '07. And I see myself going there again. So I'm going to just accept, right now, that I can't figure this out and I must wait. No more peeing with tell me anything. At least for today. ~wink~
My poas odyssey shows another light bfp. Remember folks, I got the hcg trigger twice this cycle. The first was 6,666 UIs day before ovulation and the second was 3,334 UIs 5 days past ovulation. Yeah, the last time I got LP support hcg shots and the last one was at 6 days past ovulation showing a bfn on 10dpo is neither here nor there. This cycle I have not been able to pee a negative yet, so nothing means anything. Except that my hpt is totally most likely trigger shot still in my system.
So that's that.
Okay, that's not that.
I remembered I had two digital tests in my sock drawer. Yes, yes, I know what I said about digitals. But I did ~not~ buy them. A girl at work gave them to me once she used the first one out of the 3 pack to determine she was pregnant on her first cycle trying. (bitter much nance?) Well, I figure "hey, since these internet cheapies suck, I'll try one that says it only detects 25-50 UIs of hcg and that will tell me". So I dig one out, pee on it (hrm, not FMU, but I still hadn't had anything to drink and I hadn't peed for almost 2 hours) and wait. Damn, those things take awhile to show up. There's no peeking before the 3 minutes up on these tests! A few minutes later and I see "pregnant". What a neat thing to see.
Then the rational part of my brain wakes back up and says "wait a minute, we have just determined there is, indeed, hcg in your system. And we have no idea if it is or if it isn't from the trigger. So why the hell did you just waste another test? It's not like the digitals only pick up natural hcg and not trigger!" So yes, I'm a confessed moron. But, it WAS, in fact, cool to see "pregnant" on a digital test. I may have to change my mind on those (but only after confirmation so "pregnant" actually means "pregnant".
And, if you've been a reader since last October, you'll remember the trigger of October '07. And I see myself going there again. So I'm going to just accept, right now, that I can't figure this out and I must wait. No more peeing with tell me anything. At least for today. ~wink~
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Word Verification.
For the record, I loathe word verification on blog commenting forms. I don't know if it's just because I'm a moron, but I rarely get them on the first try.
And it seems that most bloggers have this set to "on". Why? Do you just get a lot of spammers if you don't have it turned on? I don't have it turned on my blog and I've only had one spammer in a year and a half of blogging. (although I probably just jinxed it.) But then again, I guess I don't get a lot of comments, so I probably am not in the category of even getting spammers. I'm too small time for them to mess with!
I think my record was trying to put in those random letters about 5 or 6 times, before I finally said forget it and cancelled out of it. No comment is worth that, right? I just think I'm not too good at doing it. I read/type too fast so I make mistakes. Plus, their "j" and "i" look exactly alike.
Another thing - how many of you, when typing out the word verification letters, "sound it out"? Seriously - every time I am given a set of letters, I read it like it's a word. I get a kick when the word sounds extra funny or even makes sense in some way.
ahhh. I'm rambling. Well, I'm off to get waxed!
And it seems that most bloggers have this set to "on". Why? Do you just get a lot of spammers if you don't have it turned on? I don't have it turned on my blog and I've only had one spammer in a year and a half of blogging. (although I probably just jinxed it.) But then again, I guess I don't get a lot of comments, so I probably am not in the category of even getting spammers. I'm too small time for them to mess with!
I think my record was trying to put in those random letters about 5 or 6 times, before I finally said forget it and cancelled out of it. No comment is worth that, right? I just think I'm not too good at doing it. I read/type too fast so I make mistakes. Plus, their "j" and "i" look exactly alike.
Another thing - how many of you, when typing out the word verification letters, "sound it out"? Seriously - every time I am given a set of letters, I read it like it's a word. I get a kick when the word sounds extra funny or even makes sense in some way.
ahhh. I'm rambling. Well, I'm off to get waxed!
oh yes, my 9dpIUI poas update.
Still a bfp from trigger. I was hoping to get a nice BFN today, so tomorrow's 10dpIUI would be a "real" poas day, but I won't have anything to compare to.
I have been poas since a few days after last trigger and they all have been getting progressively lighter. Today, per my 1,000IUs of Hcg/day being processed, I could have as much as 500UIs. But it was still really light. Actually, it's just as light as it was yesterday. I don't see much change between yesterday and todays. These internet cheapies sure don't give a lot of information.
All I can do now is poas again tomorrow and hope to see a darker line that today. But at 10dpo, the line would be really light anyway, so even ~if~ there was any hCG to detect, without a negative reference, it's not going to mean much.
poop.
I have been poas since a few days after last trigger and they all have been getting progressively lighter. Today, per my 1,000IUs of Hcg/day being processed, I could have as much as 500UIs. But it was still really light. Actually, it's just as light as it was yesterday. I don't see much change between yesterday and todays. These internet cheapies sure don't give a lot of information.
All I can do now is poas again tomorrow and hope to see a darker line that today. But at 10dpo, the line would be really light anyway, so even ~if~ there was any hCG to detect, without a negative reference, it's not going to mean much.
poop.
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