explanations, bullets and pictures.

First up, some explanations ...

~ The grandmas. Thank you for all your advice to just "kick them out" but shit isn't that easy. My mother's flight leaves today, so I couldn't just send her to the airport days early. As for my mother in law, well, there is too much background/history where I couldn't do it without being an evil bitch. I'm probably even thought of that already from not being peachy happy for that first week. ~shrug~, it's over, so no more to worry about there.

As for just moving them out of the nursery, I would then be trapped in the nursery for all hours of the night when at least with me in the living room, I had the tv. So there wasn't an easy solution except that they shouldn't of made the decision to come and stay in the first place. My mother in law should have stayed at the Aunt's house (6 minutes away) instead of with me, as she didn't do any middle of the night stuff anywho. My mom, on the other hand, lives out of state and I understand her need to stay with me more than anyone else. I just didn't think she's stay for an entire week.

But like I said, today is the last day and tonight we'll have the nursery all to ourselves. I really appreciate all the help I did get. My mother in law cooked/cleaned and my mother cooked/cleaned ~and~ helped with the baby while I got much needed naps in. She'd get up at 530am just to take the baby while I passed out. Awesome. So all in all, I did get help. The first two weeks are just so hard and if I didn't have this to bitch about, it'd be something else.

~ The pumping. Rachel asked why I do so much pumping. I go back to work at 12 weeks and I feel so much less anxiety about being able to feed the baby breastmilk exclusively when I have a big supply in my freezer. Sure, it makes me have to pump all the time, but the stress of not having to worry about resorting to supplementing with formula is worth it to me. I'm just one of those crazy pro-breastfeeders and the thought of feeding formula when I could avoided it stresses me out. (again, I'm ~not~ anti-formula. If that's for you, I have zero issues with it. If you formula feed, please don't take anything I say as negative towards you.)

Bullets!

~ Today's weight was 146 pounds! 32 pounds "lost" in 12 days. Rock the fuck on, eh? 11 pounds to go, although that's not quite right as I need to gain some muscle back which will put on some pounds, meaning I actually have more to lose, maybe 15 lbs?

~ I'll take my last belly picture tomorrow, which is my due date.

~ Give chicklet some love today. She needs it. Really she does.

~ Check out Lori's post about bringing Mel to Colorado for a book signing!

~ I'm freaking out about money right now because of my short term disability checks coming from a different source. They send a weekly check and hopefully I'll get it this weekend, as all our bills are due this week.

~ I'm really excited about getting back into derby. I talked to the coach and I don't have to go through any recruiting again and I can just come right back on the team since I left in good standing. Sweet. MurderRita is going to be back!

~ I get my tattoo finished on Feb 3rd! (yes, I know. I'm freaking about money and I go and schedule a tattoo appointment. I never said I was smart about spending. In fact, this is exactly why I'm always in freakout mode. I spend way too much.

Pictures!

Karl is showing is utter boredom at only 4 days old...


Today (12 days old), he's a little more upbeat while mommy is blogging...