I'm still fucking sick as shit. SO sick. Like laying on the couch wanting to die sick. Nurse called today and told me to take 2nd dosage of a full Z-pack, as the blood loss is going to make me heal slower. Fucking fabulous. I can't take anymore of this. Really. I can't.
Haha god - joke's over. Rollercoaster fertility treatments, ohss, scarily low beta (remember? 15 at 11dp3dt? good one.), the "this is not viable" talk?, the "this is most likely ectopic" talk?, the 1:67 chance of downs, the velamentous cord, the placenta accreta, the 3 other placental issues, the breech position, the version, the epidural that doesn't work yet I still tried, karl's "moist lungs" (I didn't blog about it, I needed to keep negatives from him to myself), my blood loss, my emergency surgery, blood transfusions.
And now pneumonia? Seriously? I mean really?
Oh yes - and I truly think I got my PERIOD today. Awfully crampy past two days and after finally getting down to just spotting, I get a full flow today? REALLY?
Yes, joke's on me. It's been a good one. Quite a knee slapper. What's next? The fucking plague?
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- update on me.
- I ~puffy heart~ tek.
- Do I comment on your blog?
- I broke a rule.
- Pneumonia.
- Wow, I'm ~really~ sick. (upd comments)
- It's question asking time.
- The last belly pictures.
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- Temporary and craptastic pictures
- Well that's not cool at all.
- explanations, bullets and pictures.
- My eyes sting.
- I love her, I really do.
- 3 hours!!!
- So I just handed her my debit card.
- Birth Story and the after belly picture.
- Moo! Im hooked up to a pump right now. Fun times.
- A quick pic to appease the masses
- Still alive. Barely. Blood loss taking its toll. W...
- web nursery
- Okay - I'm home.
- Need blood transfusion. Still in hospital. Please ...
- In hosp until monday. Im having heart trouble. The...
- He is a sleepy baby! Nursed one side but now he sl...
- Karl is here! 7lbs, 8ozs. I was rushed to emergenc...
- +1 station, 95% effaced, 6cms. And pain is like no...
- Labor really hurts. Oh fuck. I have done it before...
- Water broke on its own at 4am. Immediate hard and ...
- Version worked! Baby boy is head down now. Startin...
- Confirmed still breech. Waiting for epidural now. ...
- Alright. I'm off!
- oh my god.
- Which ones do you hate?
- There is no way he'll let me wait.
- Holy Fucking Crap.
- 2 appointments
- Urgh.
- "Would you like to have your baby on Saturday?"
- The Misfits want my girls' skulls.
- Burger King vs McDonalds commercial
- Crap, I'm a little late with this one.
- The three B's
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33 comments:
Holy shit woman! Things will get better. They have to because I can no longer live without you (how's that for a little more pressure?)
Hugs, kisses, smooches and all the good vibes I can send.
oy. But, then there's Karl...
feel better soon
Oh Nancy ((((HUGS)))). I was wondering how you were doing. Hang in there.
I hope you feel better soon. Hugs to you.
Jeez -- I hope you get better soon. Maybe 2009 will hold wild luck in store for you starting on, say, Feb 1. It just needed to work a few things out in January. :)
You have had a doozy of a year. It will get better, I promise!! Try to sleep as much as you can. Make your husband do more so you can sleep and get well. Sending you hugs and well wishes.
Just think- all the bad shit is out of the way. Now everything can be fantastic!
Seriously though- you should play the lottery because you deserve freaking lucky break!
I love you & I hope you start feeling better really soon. Because I feel like shit & it sucks, but I have absolutely nothing to complain about compared to what you've been through. (you ~do~ get to kiss those perfect cheeks every day though!)
I hope you're going to take it easy for a while. It's been a rough ride...hopefully, it's almost over.
I won't suggest some 'next's'. Just in case :)
Get well soon,
xx
J
I am so sorry you can't catch a break!! I hope you feel better soon!!
My dear Nancy,
I am so sorry this is happening to you. I am sending you lots of virtual love -- and when I get my ass in gear -- some real love too.
XO
Pam
Oh Nancy, so not fair! I don't want know what to say except get better soon, take care of yourself and ask for help if you need so you can get better quicko.
HUGS my friend,
xxxxxxxxx
Once infertile but still sarcastic! You are truth in advertising.
I hope you are on the upside soon.
I agree with Jenn - go buy a lottery ticket. Your luck HAS to turn around soon and when it does, you are going to win big!
I do hope you get to feeling better. I am sorry you have had such a hard time with everything - thank goodness you have three beautiful children, a loving husband, and a kick ass ring to look at! LOL - sorry, just trying to get a smile out of you. :)
I'm so sorry Nancy. I hope you get well soon!
{hugs} you poor thing.. it's so not fair.
Seriously, you would think that you've suffered enough!
Hope you feel better soon...
Many, many "get well" vibes coming your way. I hope you start to feel better soon!
I'm sorry you're still feeling so bad. I'm surprised they're having you take another round of Zithromax. If it's this bad and with your sats being low like you mentioned last week, really it sounds like you should be getting IV antibiotics in the hospital. That's just my opinion opinion. Especially considering you're still not getting any better. I hope you feel better soon.
Sorry to hear that you are still sick. Those Z Packs NEVER work for me...I always have to take two. Bummer, though. I hope you are feeling better soon.
Ugh. Ugh. Double Ugh. Hoping you turn the corner soon. Would it make sense to check in with your OB re the bleeding? Given that you're low on blood already? Seems early for a period, but what do I know!
Feel better soon.
Mo
Honey.. I love ya!
You are sick as hell and still crack me up.. The plague?
I'm sending you some white energy... I hope you feel better.
~hugs~
I know what's next - someone dragging you through Home Depot against your will!!! Kidding, and sending luv to ya chicka. Feel better.
Post-partum bleeding is like that. Stops and then starts again full-blast.
And, yes. I remember being worried about that low beta (I had a bad low-beta experience, with a pregnancy that was NOT chemical).
I'm praying for you to feel better soon (and to get some rest too, as impossible as that may be).
Man, talk about Murphy's Law. Well, let's put it this way...it can't get any worse? (Can it?) *hugs* FEEL BETTER SOOOOOON!
I hope you start feeling better soon. Dang you've been through the ringer!
So sorry you are feeling so horrible. I hope soon you will be feeling great. Praying for you.
That's an awful list isn't it?
Get well soon. A new month, good health.
Not too much to ask for is it?
xxxx
GTS. Hope the worst is over.
Yay for bbc! We'll be 2 sickies watchings that sexy scottish chef together! ;o)
(umm- did I miss something in my head cold fog? I'm confused about the pink toys? I love them! I thinkthe only thing the hub said about them was that we have to be careful cause the dogs will think they are for them... Either way they're already in her laundry bag just waiting until I get up the nerve to actually do a load of 'her' laundry! i love you right back!)
((((HUGS)))) I am sorry you are so sick, but remember, you've got a beautiful little man right there becuase you are not a quitter!!
Jenn
That list is long. I'm feeling the same way in a sense... how much longer is this going to last? I'm hoping the pnemonia goes away real soon and you can get back to "normal" Nancy. Not that we've necessarily missed you, but I'm sure you've missed you. I don't know that I'm making sense. Bottom line - I hope you start feeling better soon.
~~HUGS~~
I'm gonna comment on this post because it seems the most appropriate....I totally thought you knew I was blogging on The Unlikely Life, and I just assumed you were super busy and had a lot on your plate (as this post proves!) so I didn't think anything of it. Oh, and as for missing months...that's like 4 posts for me because I'm craptastic at the blogging thing, lol.
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