Friday, January 30, 2009

update on me.

I'm still fucking sick as shit. SO sick. Like laying on the couch wanting to die sick. Nurse called today and told me to take 2nd dosage of a full Z-pack, as the blood loss is going to make me heal slower. Fucking fabulous. I can't take anymore of this. Really. I can't.

Haha god - joke's over. Rollercoaster fertility treatments, ohss, scarily low beta (remember? 15 at 11dp3dt? good one.), the "this is not viable" talk?, the "this is most likely ectopic" talk?, the 1:67 chance of downs, the velamentous cord, the placenta accreta, the 3 other placental issues, the breech position, the version, the epidural that doesn't work yet I still tried, karl's "moist lungs" (I didn't blog about it, I needed to keep negatives from him to myself), my blood loss, my emergency surgery, blood transfusions.

And now pneumonia? Seriously? I mean really?

Oh yes - and I truly think I got my PERIOD today. Awfully crampy past two days and after finally getting down to just spotting, I get a full flow today? REALLY?

Yes, joke's on me. It's been a good one. Quite a knee slapper. What's next? The fucking plague?

33 comments:

Mareike said...

Holy shit woman! Things will get better. They have to because I can no longer live without you (how's that for a little more pressure?)
Hugs, kisses, smooches and all the good vibes I can send.

Paz said...

oy. But, then there's Karl...

feel better soon

loribeth said...

Oh Nancy ((((HUGS)))). I was wondering how you were doing. Hang in there.

Nikki said...

I hope you feel better soon. Hugs to you.

Motel Manager said...

Jeez -- I hope you get better soon. Maybe 2009 will hold wild luck in store for you starting on, say, Feb 1. It just needed to work a few things out in January. :)

Soapchick said...

You have had a doozy of a year. It will get better, I promise!! Try to sleep as much as you can. Make your husband do more so you can sleep and get well. Sending you hugs and well wishes.

jenn said...

Just think- all the bad shit is out of the way. Now everything can be fantastic!

Seriously though- you should play the lottery because you deserve freaking lucky break!

I love you & I hope you start feeling better really soon. Because I feel like shit & it sucks, but I have absolutely nothing to complain about compared to what you've been through. (you ~do~ get to kiss those perfect cheeks every day though!)

areyoukiddingme said...

I hope you're going to take it easy for a while. It's been a rough ride...hopefully, it's almost over.

Geohde said...

I won't suggest some 'next's'. Just in case :)

Get well soon,

xx

J

Mandy said...

I am so sorry you can't catch a break!! I hope you feel better soon!!

Wordgirl said...

My dear Nancy,

I am so sorry this is happening to you. I am sending you lots of virtual love -- and when I get my ass in gear -- some real love too.

XO

Pam

Artblog said...

Oh Nancy, so not fair! I don't want know what to say except get better soon, take care of yourself and ask for help if you need so you can get better quicko.

HUGS my friend,

xxxxxxxxx

JamieD said...

Once infertile but still sarcastic! You are truth in advertising.

I hope you are on the upside soon.

Sara said...

I agree with Jenn - go buy a lottery ticket. Your luck HAS to turn around soon and when it does, you are going to win big!

I do hope you get to feeling better. I am sorry you have had such a hard time with everything - thank goodness you have three beautiful children, a loving husband, and a kick ass ring to look at! LOL - sorry, just trying to get a smile out of you. :)

littlesteps said...

I'm so sorry Nancy. I hope you get well soon!

emilythehopeless said...

{hugs} you poor thing.. it's so not fair.

Photogrl said...

Seriously, you would think that you've suffered enough!

Hope you feel better soon...

Swanson Family said...

Many, many "get well" vibes coming your way. I hope you start to feel better soon!

Kimjj514 said...

I'm sorry you're still feeling so bad. I'm surprised they're having you take another round of Zithromax. If it's this bad and with your sats being low like you mentioned last week, really it sounds like you should be getting IV antibiotics in the hospital. That's just my opinion opinion. Especially considering you're still not getting any better. I hope you feel better soon.

Emily said...

Sorry to hear that you are still sick. Those Z Packs NEVER work for me...I always have to take two. Bummer, though. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Mo and Will said...

Ugh. Ugh. Double Ugh. Hoping you turn the corner soon. Would it make sense to check in with your OB re the bleeding? Given that you're low on blood already? Seems early for a period, but what do I know!

Feel better soon.

Mo

Lilith Silvermane said...

Honey.. I love ya!

You are sick as hell and still crack me up.. The plague?

I'm sending you some white energy... I hope you feel better.

~hugs~

chicklet said...

I know what's next - someone dragging you through Home Depot against your will!!! Kidding, and sending luv to ya chicka. Feel better.

Rachel Inbar said...

Post-partum bleeding is like that. Stops and then starts again full-blast.

And, yes. I remember being worried about that low beta (I had a bad low-beta experience, with a pregnancy that was NOT chemical).

I'm praying for you to feel better soon (and to get some rest too, as impossible as that may be).

Elana Kahn said...

Man, talk about Murphy's Law. Well, let's put it this way...it can't get any worse? (Can it?) *hugs* FEEL BETTER SOOOOOON!

~*JaYmE*~ said...

I hope you start feeling better soon. Dang you've been through the ringer!

Hollie said...

So sorry you are feeling so horrible. I hope soon you will be feeling great. Praying for you.

Seraphim said...

That's an awful list isn't it?
Get well soon. A new month, good health.
Not too much to ask for is it?
xxxx

Glennformer said...

GTS. Hope the worst is over.

jenn said...

Yay for bbc! We'll be 2 sickies watchings that sexy scottish chef together! ;o)


(umm- did I miss something in my head cold fog? I'm confused about the pink toys? I love them! I thinkthe only thing the hub said about them was that we have to be careful cause the dogs will think they are for them... Either way they're already in her laundry bag just waiting until I get up the nerve to actually do a load of 'her' laundry! i love you right back!)

Jenn BG said...

((((HUGS)))) I am sorry you are so sick, but remember, you've got a beautiful little man right there becuase you are not a quitter!!

Jenn

Velma said...

That list is long. I'm feeling the same way in a sense... how much longer is this going to last? I'm hoping the pnemonia goes away real soon and you can get back to "normal" Nancy. Not that we've necessarily missed you, but I'm sure you've missed you. I don't know that I'm making sense. Bottom line - I hope you start feeling better soon.
~~HUGS~~

KatieM said...

I'm gonna comment on this post because it seems the most appropriate....I totally thought you knew I was blogging on The Unlikely Life, and I just assumed you were super busy and had a lot on your plate (as this post proves!) so I didn't think anything of it. Oh, and as for missing months...that's like 4 posts for me because I'm craptastic at the blogging thing, lol.