No, no call yet.

I completely expect to have to wait until 3pm MT to call them, so that's a little more than 4 hours from now.

I'm just not too good at waiting. My cell phone is sitting in front of me and anytime someone texts or calls me, my heart goes into my stomach. When I see it's not the hospital, I have to remember to breathe.

Fuck.

In 4 hours, I could be relieved or be devastated.

And it's not fair to come back and tell me "there is nothing wrong with a baby with Down Syndrome".

As a matter of fact, yes, yes there is.

~ 75% die in utero.
~ gastrointestinal abnormalities
~ hearing loss
~ sight disorders
~ hightened increase for leukemia
~ thyroid disorders
~ 60% will get early Alzheimer's
~ congenital heart disease
~ developmental delays - IQ scores range from 20 (severe mental retardation) to 85 (low normal). Overall learning abilities are usually equivalent to a 6 to 8 year old child without Down syndrome.
~ 15% death rate in first year of life
~ 50% death rate in first 50 years.

No, I am not looking at it as my child won't be "perfect", whatever that means. I don't care s/he'll be behind or will look different. I'll tell you why I'm terrified. I'm scared to death my child is going to have to have a life full of very serious medical problems. And ~that~, my friends, is why I'm worried.