They know I'm an expert menstruator (see previous post) and they are afraid of me showing everyone up ~again~ that they are giving me a handicap - birth control pills. They know that I'll obviously menstruate EASILY on them - they are making me take them, just so I can't gloat about how I thwarted all their other attempts. They (the entire RE staff) needs a break and apparently, they think I need one too.
I got the call this afternoon. I thought I was going to get a date for another uterine check, but next thing I knew I was writing down my pre-surgical appointment and the time I need to be to the outpatient surgery center. Seems doc is so sure I need another surgery, he's just scheduling it along with the scope, so while he's in there, he can operate at the same time.
How awesome. Before it was "if" I needed more surgery. Now it's a when. And that "when" is 2 weeks away. Nov 2nd.
fuck. me.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- 100th post (updated 11/05)
- Whew. Halloween is a lot of work.
- Anon - It's not a deductible.
- Infertility coverage windfall.
- Holiday Socks.
- I have surgery in 4 days.
- GO RED SOX!!!
- Misery loves company.
- I can't stop puking.
- psst ... go red sox!
- Statistics of Late Implantation.
- My pomegranate bracelet.
- Peter Pan. The Tortoise.
- next trivia city
- 3 trivia items from 3 cities.
- Anyone part of a message board?
- My search phrases are hilarious.
- Allison got her cast off!
- "I'd rather be ignorant".
- They are SO afraid of me
- I'm NOT a failure!!!
- The Quick Fix.
- no longer too early.
- another bfn
- I'm having a "poor me" moment.
- oh yeah - my official derby name is ...
- I made the team!
- Welcome to dorksville. Population ME.
- I couldn't check ...
- Put a gun in my mouth and just pull the trigger.
- Want in on my insanity?
- The private pain.
- My first self-injection is done.
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8 comments:
those damn docs are far too intimidated by your expertise!
I'm sorry that it went from ~if~ to ~when~ in a flash. I'm sorry it has to happen at all, but maybe getting it done quicker means getting recovered & on to your little bean quicker...
I know- I'm reaching for some rainbows, but that's the new me... ;)
Love & hugs hon.
- ugh - I wish I had something else to say... some glimmer of hope, or brilliant words of encouragement. They're in my heart, I just can't find the rigt words. So from me, you get - ugh - but know that it's sent with love. ;-)
wow. That is a lot to process.
Clearly you are more powerful than you even realized in your expert menstrator status. They run in fear--good idea.
As for the rest: I'm so sorry about the scope/surgery/general suckiness. You can't seem to catch a break.
I'm so sorry Nancy. I mean its just not fair that you should have to go through all of this. I don't know what else to say except that I really hoping that this all leads you to #3.
Well, I hope the surgery goes well.
fuck, that sucks.
I am so sorry you are going through this. I feel your frustration on these doctors just pushing drugs and surgery.
Now don't think I'm a kook, but have you ever thought of trying the homeopathic route? Those doctors look at the total patient and NOT just the symptom. Don't know how it would work exactly with IF but it maybe worth a shot?
-A friendly stalker who is Anonymous due to trigs
That sucks :O(.
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