The clinic does their cycles in batches, so next cycle is March 17th. I may be able to sneak in a natural cycle, but the idea of cysts or a long cycle would knock me out of the IVF batch, so that is scary. I'm just going to await cd1 and give the nurse a call. I think they start suppression March 17th, so maybe getting in a cycle wouldn't be too bad. We'll just have to wait and see.
Oh yeah, blood already given. I'll update you with my negative beta later :)
(and the "upbeat" attitude it seems like I have? Yeah - it's fake. My heart is broken. In pieces.)
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- 888-823-6067
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25 comments:
Nancy, I'm glad you are getting this opportunity to be able to do this. Well not GLAD it has came down to this, but you get my drift! I just want to wish you luck and lots of success!! I did some research on it and they said millions and millions of babies are conceived through IVF, if that makes you feel any better. Anyways, goodluck and I'll be checking in on your blog in the mean time! Take care. (((HUGS)))
Thinking of you today! I hope that IVF goes well for you and is stress free (as much as possible, I guess)
Congrats on getting in to the next batch. I don't know what to say about this cycle, just know I'm thinking about you today.
Oh Nancy,
I wish I had words of wisdom or anything -- but what I can say is that I truly understand that heartbreak and my thoughts are with you.
I admire your attitude and your eyes on the road ahead -- I'll be reading and thinking of you.
Pam
Wow that isn't too bad March. I hope that March comes super quick for you. Hopefully the beta is positive and you won't even have to worry about it. Sorry I am just holding out so much hope for you.
Amy
I'm still holding out a teensy bit of hope for your beta today. Progesterone never did shit for my boobs ;-)
If not, I'm glad that you have IVF as an option, scary as it may be.
What you're coming to terms with -- the shift in your best-laid plans -- it's tough.
Pamper yourself this weekend!
I'm sorry that this cycle is most likely a bust. It's complete crap that you or anybody else has to go through this. I am glad that IVF is on the horizon at least.
March 17th? Isn't that Saint Patrick's Day? I think it's a sign.
Thanks for posting so frequently. I'm going crazy in my 2ww and home alone today.
Wow, way to move ahead quickly, despite the heat ache. I really admire your steadfastness.
I'm with Lori: hardcore pampering is in order.
I wish you lots of luck going forward! Many hugs
I'm sorry this cycle wasn't the one. It just sucks. I hope you can take some time this weekend to do something that will make you feel better. Thinking of you.
{{{{Hugs}}}}
Thinking of you. ANd letting you know that we are all here for you. Even when we do not leave comments, we are here.
Nancy,
I am glad you are going to go the IVF route. I know every situation is different, but this family I used to baby-sit for (they tried for many, many years to get pregnant and couldn't...all 4 of the women in her family were infertile and had to go through IVF) ended up with 2 beautiful chilren through this procedure, and this was back in 1991 and 1994. I can only imagine that with today's medical advances that they would know a lot more. I will keep you in my thoughts. Oh, and hey--St. Patty's Day! Hopefully luck will be on your side.
I wanted to tell you yesterday how sorry I was that this cycle ended up not being your cycle, but I wanted to give you a little time so I didn't seem like I was bugging you. We are all here for ya! It broke my heart to read about you crying. (((Nancy)))
hummmm, March 17th, that marks a very eventful day for me. I hope it does for you too.
Sending some ~Irish Luck~ for ya on that day.
That is weird they do batches, especially around March 17, That's when my friend at work had her IVF and was KU last year (after 7 years TTC) and had her baby December 22, so close to Christmas, not that I'd be picky, but I thin February would be better, (mostly so you wouldn’t have to wait so long).
Your in my thoughts and prayers. But you already know that.
March 17th? Auspicious day for a wannabe Irish Girl!
Here's to hoping you don't need to...
(hope you're OK.)
(((hugs)))
I'm so sorry that your heart is broken, but I'd be worried about you if it wasn't in this situation.
Good luck with IVF!
Nancy, I'm sorry about this cycle. I'm really happy for you that you get to do IVF though! (In that way that in an ideal world you could just have sex, but the world is unfair so at least it's an option type of way.)
You are on my mind today hun.
Hey Nancy,
I have been stalking your blog for a while now. Sorry that it has come to IVF, but it really isn't that bad. I just started stims on 1/27--and so far it has been fairly easy. Of course I haven't gone through ER/ET yet, so I may be in a totally different mind set after that- we will see.
Anyway just wanted to say good luck-and who knows, maybe you will get lucky on your "natural" cycle :)
glad you have a plan for ivf started. that will make the heartbreak a tiny easier if you get a negative beta. hey...9 months from march 17 is christmas so maybe you will have a christmas miracle!
((((hugs))))
(((hugs)))
*sorry that last one was me but I didnt realise my husband was still signed in*
Does this mean you start suppressing March 17th or go into real IVF durgs and stims then?
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