This is such my luck, why didn't I have it on my radar as a possibility? Why wasn't I ready for this? It hit me so hard because it was simply such a shock.
This morning, the extra day of growth didn't do crap - the thinnest layer of lining was only pushing 6mm, so my transfer has been officially cancelled. There is the thicker part of my lining around 9-10mm, but apparently, it all has to be thick - the one area is the one that matters. Suck.
Regarding my soon to be (hopefully) embryos, they will go to freeze immediately upon fertilization. Apparently the cells are more stable at this point, so freezing them before they grow ends up in a higher percentage of embryos to transfer. That's a good thing, but now I'll be in the dark about how many make it. I already have a name for the group of fertilized embryos, if they make it that far and I'll give that name out once we have them in the freezer.
As for schedule of my FET, it should be April 23rd -May 8th. Our head embryologist travels between offices, so he's only there during pre-scheduled times. This is why our clinic groups everything together. Barring any issues with ER (ohss or anything under the sun), I should be able to go directly into my FET. I just have to get my AF by the 18th to fit into the schedule. That is 3 weeks after ER, so should be okay. If I get AF before the 9th, I just need to go on bcp for a few ~days~. Not a problem. Bottom line, FET should be in about 4 weeks from now. I can handle that.
ER is Friday morning. Yipee. I haven't the heart to be excited.
I'm waiting on the call from my blood work. The nurse said she had a conference call from the out of town doc (the one who measured the thicker part) and the one from today - and they will specifically go over the aspect of my lining being different thicknesses. I'm okay with the decision to move to FET, as I really do want the best landing pad for my embryos, but for peace of mind, I need to know that each RE was in agreement.
So that's that.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- Update on the marriage thing. And it's long.
- It must be ~really~ bad.
- Really down.
- The Mod Squad
- This pain I have
- Introducing ... The Mod Squad.
- Back from my egg retrieval.
- my heart has stopped.
- Oh no.
- Looking for the positives.
- Transfer officially ~cancelled~
- comment that just made me want to throw up.
- IVF Cancelled
- No bueno. sd9.
- Follie report after 7 days of stims.
- I'm still irritated.
- Follie report after 6 days of stims. (updated w/ E2)
- Wow. I am starting to feel it.
- For Laurel and Pete.
- Follie report after 4 days of stims. (update 2)
- The difference an IFer feels about her children.
- E2 levels are low.
- Responses to the Taggings and some feelings.
- Alrighty, well, it's all done.
- I'm stimulated.
- She's here.
- Stim Start appointment.
- Do you believe in "jinxing"?
- Back to the adoption post.
- 300
- WTF?
- "Why don't you just adopt?"
- 2nd injection
- Injections in the belly? Bah.
- I start Lupron tonight!
- "Practice what you preach"
- If I have to study, will there be a test?
- TTCers never stop fighting.
- "This month"
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23 comments:
Nancy, I am so sorry that this cycle got canceled. I am thinking of you.
Beth
I sound like a broken record, but I am so sorry. I hope the retrieval results in a multitude of eggs and the FET arrives very very soon.
Sorry that you have to go through this hun!
Question though...what is the difference between IVF and FET? I have heard of both but never having to personally deal with them I am at a loss.
((((HUGS)))
Amber, FET is "frozen embryo transfer". So instead of putting back embryos right after they are fertilized in IVF, I have to freeze my embryos and wait for another cycle. Same thing for the most part, just a month of waiting.
I have no words for how much my heart is breaking for you. I wish I could hug you in person.
{{{HUGS}}}
Nancy - I am so sorry that you have to do more waiting. I am thinking of you
This just sucks Nancy, but you are on the "books" for April which I guess is a good thing to look forward to.
If you are up for it and want to process this crap, we should try and get a few of us together for some happy hour someplace.
Oh crap! I can certainly understand your disappointment, and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. This nasty IF business just keeps getting nastier, doesn't it? Just when you think you have it figured out, or outsmarted, it throws another monkey wrench into things. Ugh. Again, so sorry.
I am so so sorry to hear that this cyle has to be cancelled. I can't imagine how frustrating that must be.
Of course if this gives your embryos the best chance it is absolutely the right thing to do but that won't make it any easier right now.
This stinks.
I'm glad the FET won't be too far away, but still. Ug.
I'm so sorry about this cycle. I'm glad that you are scheduled for April, but how I wish it wasn't so. I wish so many tings right now, none of which I can do, but I am here with theoretical open arms for whatever you need.
I'm still so sorry that the transfer was cancelled.
I hope that the conference call brings a perfect plan for a perfect lining and that your FET goes textbook!
Nancy, I just wanted to let you know that you are definitely in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry this isn't working out quite as planned. I wish there was something I could do or say to make things better. Hoping for better news in the future
AS you knew, my lining blew the BIG ONE, they grew until day 3 and then froze the embies, if we had more than 8 we would have grown to day 5, our doc said longer before thawing is better. We'll see you and I will FET togeather.
I'm an idiot, I read on lost and found that you needed advice on when to freeze, i don't understand where all these doc's get their different information, you would think that something like when to freeze the embies would be a consistant thing.... guess not.
Hugs!!! I am so sorry Nancy - I hope ER goes well and you get lots of little ones to go to FET!!!
I like Meg's suggestion for happy hour. Let us know if you're up to it.
Cancelled cycles just completely suck ass no matter how quickly you can get back on the horse. I really hope that you are the example to restore my faith in FET's. I so, so, so hope you get lots of good embryos and your lining cooperates quickly!
I really hate to hear this. . . I know it's so disappointing for you. You're in my thoughts.
Hey, Nancy. Just saw your question on L&F. Our embryos were all frozen the day after retrieval. For our first thaw, they thawed 4 and 3 survived. For this last one they thawed all 14, and 10 survived the thaw.
Feel free to email if you have any other questions.
nancy, sorry about the cancelled transfer. hopefully they'll get you some great embryos and you'll be you where you need to be for the FET.
what's their minimum lining before they'll do it? what's the optimum? just curious as it seems each clinic is different. (mine says their success rates are the same for 7-12mm, but the 7 has to be a solid 7)
~luna
I don't know what to say that could comfort you. This really sucks and I'm very upset for you. I'm not much of a praying person but you are in my thoughts and I can only hope that the next cycle will result in those embies being transfered and a beautiful baby is concieved.
Cate
I just had my little ones frozen immediately too. My doc said it is the best for them. I have no news on the thawing or any of that since it just took place yesterday. I hope you get to transfer soon!
Nancy, I am sorry,
J
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