Only a 15.5
All I can do now is hope it was late implantation. Which, since it was negative yesterday and positive today, it must have been. If the hcg was higher earlier and dropping now, I'd of gotten a BFP earlier.
Next Beta is Monday, 7:30. Oh boy. This wait is going to be fun.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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38 comments:
I am very quietly saying congratulations and then holding your hand through the weekend while you wait and sending out many good thoughts about late implantation.
Got any plans for the weekend? We are supposed to have beautiful weather so hopefully you aren't working and will be able to spend some time with your family outside!
Positive vibes coming your way!
OMG, I haven't been able to check your blog for two days. Our server at work started blocking it for some reason. Anyways, it's takes my breath to see that picture of the "positive"! I'm so praying it's worked for you Nancy - don't give up! God knows you deserve this.
It's late implantation. If the hcg was dropping you wouldn't have gone through the negative shit earlier in the week. You know that, hell you said it, but maybe the reassurance helps?
Hope you can find a good way to spend the weekend, and good luck on Monday!
Omg.... hope you get a nice high beta on monday! I freaked when I saw your peestick. Positive vibes and hope this weekend isn't eternal for you.
=]
Remember Emily's numbers were low(3.5) and she is currently in labor right now. I wish you triple doubling vibes:)
I totally agree with what your friend Kaci said. If the number was dropping you would have had a BFP sooner. You got one today - it's the first day. But I can imagine how long the wait must seem. Vibes coming your way for a great beta count on Monday!!!
I completely think it's late implantation, and if you implanted about two days ago it makes sense. I know this is totally nerve racking and stressful hun. I will be thinking about you this weekend. I hope it passes quickly!
Better late than never...this one will be your little procrastinator! If you're anything like me, you will continue to obsessively POAS all weekend, and then you'll have fabulous numbers on Monday. You have all the prayers and positive vibes I can muster!
What the hell? What made you test? I can't believe this, this is so crazy. This is going to be a LONG weekend!
What a long weekend this will be. It must be a late implantation. I'm keeping everything crossed that you have more reassuring numbers by Monday.
This is going to be a crazy long weekend for you! I've got my fingers crossed and I totally agree, you could not be more deserving!
Okay, (((breath)))) I need to slow down my own emotions, I know that nothing is anything until those numbers are high, but late implantation (or what ever) makes total sense, I have a good feeling for you.
OH and I forgot to mention, I had a dream about you last night. (Yes, I'm dreaming about you) But I have go give a bit of history, Not always, but many many times, when I dream that someone is KU, I find out that they are, (I know its not always true because I dreamed I was KU last summer and I was wrong, and it doesn’t always work out in my favor, when I dreamt my SIL was KU, she called me in the middle of the dream, I told her I thought she was KU, the next day, she took a test and “Wa-La”, then I dreamt it was my boyfriends baby (no shit) and sure enough, she had an affair with the guy I was seeing and it ended up being his (yes, my brother divorced her – this was years ago),
But in my dream, your test results turned around and you were KU, and you looked fabulous, you were so healthy, physically and emotionally. When I woke up this morning, and remembered I had the dream, I thought "Nope, her test was Neg-, it was just a stupid dream), I even delayed looking at your blog because I didn’t want to see the heart break just yet. (we're in the middle of our Annual Meeting with all the board members, mayors, councilmen, etc and I have to remain emotionally cool)
So – long story longer – I’m going to remain totally hopeful. But this is going to be a very long weekend. And forgive me if my words are too much in the future, I don't mean them to be.
Feel free to update us with every stick you pee on. Ooh, Pee on some OPK’s too for the fun of it (lol)
I should mail you mine :)
You've got to start somewhere! I'll be praying that the numbers get bigger and bigger!
Tori
I'm hoping its late implantation too!
And my nurses did tell me lots of stories about betas as low as 8 resulting in healthy babies.
Sending lots of warm thoughts your way and a quick wait until Monday.
*Shhhh - Whispering Congratulations*
Sending lots of good thoughts your way. I hope this weekend flies by so you can get to Monday quickly. The wait is so agonizing. XOXO
Heh. I didn't get a BFP until (equiv) 14dpo either. I had a healthy pregnancy, too. Here's hoping.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the beta will continue to rise. Congrats!
See, yet another reason why you start testing early and continue testing....and another reason why you didn't stop early. A whole 'nother day to celebrate!
;)
Okay, so now I'm curious. What made you decide to do a digital today? Did you get a line on an IC and then decide to do a digi? :)
I'm thinking good thoughts for you.
Monday is too far away...I'm pulling for you Nancy.
xo
Pam
Sarah,
I usually have the cheap-o internet tests. I buy in bulk, so they are only like .60 each. I ran out and needed to buy real tests and I needed 3 days worth (wed, thurs, fri) so I bought a box of EPTs which was a box of 2, plus one "free" digital. Perfect. I hate digitals so that's why it was left for the end. ON a day I didn't think I needed to obsess about second lines!
I know this will be a really tough weekend for you, b/c I've been through the EXACT same thing. It's a rough few days of waiting. Good luck Monday!
To add to my earlier comment, I got to thinking that maybe it was Ringo who stuck. He didn't join the band until later, right?
i'll be keeping you in my thoughts this weekend and hoping that that line gets darker and darker for you!! keeping my fingers crossed for your procrastinating mod squad!
thats still good, implanting late is better than never - hope you have a strong # on monday
Just popping in to say that I'm quietly hoping for you.
Nancy- I am so thrilled to see this string of posts- well- cautiously thrilled until monday. Call me if you need distracting- I'm going to look for stupid games for you- anything to get Monday here faster.
I agree that it is late implantation- you agree too, but it doesn't make it any easier to wait for those new numbers.
All the rollercoasters, the week of heartbreaks, it ~can't~ be for nothing. You are a fighter & it looks like you've hopefully got at least one just like you.
nancy! thats charlotte birthday, btw..your EDD
Crossing my crossables for you,
J
Holding my breath for you!
woohoo nancy. congrats on the bfp. I hope you get a very sticky bean in there or two and that you just happened to catch the start of the next 9 months very very early.
Fanfreakintabulous!!!!
The beta's gotta start somewhere. Now you begin the journey into beta hell, I wish you did not have to go there, but I am so happy for you and your family with this wonderful news.
Congrats on your BFP and good luck with your beta Monday. I hope that you are able to relax in some way this weekend even though I know that's probably impossible.
I know this weekend will be tough -- hang in there. It really is possible it could be late implantation. I'm going to keep on hoping that is the case and you get your socks knocked off with Monday's numbers.
Hi.. I found you from Trisha's site. I just want to wish you... and one-four of the Fab Four good luck.
Lots of warm thoughts and light from here in Colorado!
I am so excited for you!! I have faith that your little late implanter will stick around and make you proud!
hey, congratulations!
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