... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- Holy Schnikees.
- I'm like the boy who cried wolf.
- We'll know today.
- With all my being ...
- "Stay Positive"
- "60% chance of ectopic"
- Going in for Beta #3 (update 1)
- Scary Guy Pills, Part 2.
- What the hell?
- Scary Guy Pills
- How many?
- Double Bubble.
- blood drawn for beta #2
- I'm about to turn blue. - Updated w/ bfp progression
- Small update on 12dp3dt
- I'm still here!
- Beta in - It's low.
- Why does my digital pregnancy test on 11dp3dt (upd...
- It's a brand new day
- 9dp3dt
- 8dp3dt - still bfn.
- ah-hem.
- because I'm obsessive
- 7dp3dt (and a vent)
- Same on 6dp3dt
- 5dp3dt
- When can I start my POAS fest?
- Just call me Lumpy.
- 3dp3dt - Oh yes, this is going to continue.
- 2dp3dt
- Heavy post.
- The non eventful, non update.
- My embryos are superstars!!!
- I got "the call".
- Fertilization Report.
- I love me a big fat rollercoaster ride & girls who...
- I told them to thaw out The Mod Squad.
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43 comments:
I am sorry Nancy. I didn't get my BFP with a fresh IVF cycle till 10dp5dt. I am still holding out hope.
Fuck! I'm so sorry Nancy. I wish I had words that would help, but all I can say is I'm sorry. Fuckfuckfuck!
I'm so sorry Nancy.
I wish (and still hope) that this would turn around. I cant believe the pain you must be going through, I'm crying with you/ for you, and for your 4 that didnt make it, I'm so so sorry :(
another (((~Zillion Hugs~)))
damn it. damn it damn it damn it. (((HUGS)))
Oh, Nancy.
Is there anything I can do?
Sending a 90-mile stretch of a hug. (Maybe that's an overshot.)
Let me know if you'd like my phone #. We can talk.
Is it really?
Oh Nancy, I'm truly sorry. I will, of course, remain hopeful, but it's a kind of sickness I have...ever hopeful.
XO
Pam
I'm so sorry. Words can't express how sorry I am for you. Hugs...
HUGS Nancy!!!
Just dropping a line to tell you im thinking about you nancy, im sure "sorry" is really getting played out to you by now
I really hate this for you. Hang on to hope for as long as you can, sweetie.
andrea
I'm sorry Nancy!
Oh Nancy, I am so so sorry!
look back at your post a few days ago, theres still time for a bfp!! i'm keeping my fingers doubly crossed for those double lines for you!!!
With IUIs and "natural" cycles, I know a BFP can happen as early as 9dpo, but it's not common to see them. I know that 10dpo is more common and I know that most pregnant women who actually know the specific day of ovulation will get a BFP on 11dpo. I know that I trust a 12dpo BFN at an 85% accuracy rate. I know a 13dpo BFN can be trusted 95%. I trust a 14dpo BFN 99%, even with the lack of AF.
i hope tomorrow is your day!!!
(((((((((((((((Nancy)))))))))))))
Tori
Shit. That sucks Nancy. Obviously I hope you are just slow to get a positive, but I will kick a wall for you regardless.
I am so sorry Nancy. It sucks and it hurts and I am so sorry.
Oh Nancy (((Hugs))) I'm so sorry.
Anon - this is ~not~ a natural or IUI cycle. This is not a "dpo" type thing. EMBRYOS were placed in me 9 days ago. Those stats do not work.
I'm so very sorry.
Nancy, there is still that evil hope thing. But, i'm sorry- this sucks.
&@^$%!^!*#($$&!!!!!!!
Sorry nancy, [[[hugs]]] still keeping FX for you..
Fuckity fuck fuck FUCK!
I'm so sorry hon! {{{gentle hugs}}}
I'M SORRY
Fuck, Nancy. Damn...
Ugh, Nancy. So sorry...(((HUGS)))
sorry for misunderstanding. sending you lots of hugs!!
(((((Hugs)))))
I've been checking in everyday and praying for good news for you. I am so sorry.
Gail
Fuckity fuck fuck fuck. This just completely fucking sucks. Bah, this infertility shit is just all so completely stupid. If you have a drink tonight, let me know, and I'll drink one too, and think of you and your fucking suckiness.
I am so sorry, Nancy.
((((Hugs))))
shit. I'm sorry.
I don't even know what to say but wanted you to know that I am thinking about you.
FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK
I am so sorry. My heart hurts for you. If there was anything I could do to make this more bareable for you, I would... (((hugs)))
That still sucks.
I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say other than what everyone else is saying.
Fuck.
I am so sorry Nancy.
fuck.
no words honey. I just wish I could change it.
Shit. This just sucks. I'm sorry, Nancy.
Words aren't enough. This totally sucks. Big ginormous virtual HUGS sent your way.
I'm sorry.
That fucking sucks assholes.
I'm so sorry .
that sucks!
Thanks to google reader I know I don't have to write any consolation because you got a PREGNANT!!!
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