... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- Holy Schnikees.
- I'm like the boy who cried wolf.
- We'll know today.
- With all my being ...
- "Stay Positive"
- "60% chance of ectopic"
- Going in for Beta #3 (update 1)
- Scary Guy Pills, Part 2.
- What the hell?
- Scary Guy Pills
- How many?
- Double Bubble.
- blood drawn for beta #2
- I'm about to turn blue. - Updated w/ bfp progression
- Small update on 12dp3dt
- I'm still here!
- Beta in - It's low.
- Why does my digital pregnancy test on 11dp3dt (upd...
- It's a brand new day
- 9dp3dt
- 8dp3dt - still bfn.
- ah-hem.
- because I'm obsessive
- 7dp3dt (and a vent)
- Same on 6dp3dt
- 5dp3dt
- When can I start my POAS fest?
- Just call me Lumpy.
- 3dp3dt - Oh yes, this is going to continue.
- 2dp3dt
- Heavy post.
- The non eventful, non update.
- My embryos are superstars!!!
- I got "the call".
- Fertilization Report.
- I love me a big fat rollercoaster ride & girls who...
- I told them to thaw out The Mod Squad.
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19 comments:
While *I* am a crazy HomeDepot-obsessed lady, *you* are a crazy POAS-obsessed lady. It'd be nice if that obsession paid off and you got two lines though...
Sucks, but still early, according to the stats. Ugh ugh ugh though!
I am going to officially come out of lurking today. I have been waiting, watching and praying all week for this to be different. I know that, yes, you did the statistics below and the truth is it could still be too early with a 3dt, but I also know that statistics can be really fucked up and don't mean shit when your heart is breaking piece by piece as the days go by.
I can't even tell you how heavy my heart is to write this, and honestly that is the reason I didn't say anything until now about the testing. I was just hoping I would come back the next day to different news so I could forget that sadness. I know you were just looking for a chance....a chance to complete a cycle and not expecting a BFP and I know you have a "plan" ahead, but the fact is you did an FET just like everyone else and it may not have worked (yes, I am still saying "may not" at this point) and that fact, regardless of the situation is flat out unfair, and believe me I am crying with you.
Still keeping my fingers crossed for you.
Oh...I can hardly stand the suspense!
Don't count yourself out yet though...doesn't this suck? I won't even poas after this tww -- I can't -- but I can't stand my incessant hoping on the one hand and feeling hopeless on the other.
*sigh*
I know it isn't much of a consolation but I'm right there with you.
xo
Pam
(((hugs)))
I'm so sorry hunny.
Nancy, I am so sorry...but still keeping my fingers crossed for your BFP.
I still figure you have a couple of days of possibility remaining...I got my BFP on 9dp3dt, but it was FAINT even then. Fingers crossed, chica...
Still sucks, still hoping for another line.
I'm sorry... I am still hoping though.
Sorry Nancy, I really hope it is just still a little early.
I'm sorry - negative pee sticks *always* suck, I've seen them over and over. I know hearing that it could still be too early doesn't make you feel any better... but I hope it's just still too early.
I don't know if this will help, or will make you want to tell me to just shut up, but I know there is no way I would have seen gotten a positive at 6dp5dt (which I think would be very close to 8dp3dt) because at 9dp5dt, the second line was still super light.
(((HUGS)))
I am so sorry Nancy. My heart aches for you.
~~Hugs~~
Dot
f*ck
:(
negatives ~do~ always suck. but a negative at this point after a 'real' chance (an FET chance at that) is pure hell & I am sorry you are going through it.
hugs & love.
Crappy. Crap! I hate that a negative stick doesn't tell you anything. It's not, "no, you're not pregnant," it's "I'm not going to tell you what the answer is."
Stupid pee sticks.
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