Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Please kick your mommy.

I'm getting anxious for the kicks. I'm 16 1/2 weeks and due time to start feeling this little boy. I do feel random "what the hell was that?" feelings - little flutters, little movements. But it never happens two times in a row, so I'm never ever paying attention. And because of that, I can never conclude it's actually him.

The funny thing about early movements is most of the time, it's digestion. The uterus moves all the intestines up, pretty much squishing against them. So most of the time I think I feel a movement roll across my lower tummy and a few moments later I pass gas or have to go to the bathroom. Heh. "I just felt the baby!" turns out to be my lunch.

I know it's still on the early side though. With Ella, I didn't feel the kicks until 19 weeks. With Allison though, I felt her early. I was definitely feeling kicks by 16 weeks. ~Grumble~. Of course, I know I'm on the lucky train to lotteryland for even getting the chance to await the eventual kicks, but now that I've been on the train for 16 weeks, I find myself wanting a better seat. Funny how the bitching of an past IFer turns into whining about not feeling kicks soon enough, eh? Any IFers out there still awaiting their first BFP, go ahead and roll your eyes and call me a bitch. It's totally cool with me for you to do that!

Hrm, what else?

How do I approach this one? I'll just blurt it out. I am uneasy about reading blogs that delve into the personal nature of someone's brain. Like when a pregnant blogger writes emotional letters to her unborn baby. It feels to me that I shouldn't be reading such a personal thing, so I end up shying away from the blog all together. Or if anyone gets too religious in their blog, I quickly click away. I honestly don't know why I do it. But if I see a bible passage quoted in a blog? Yeah, it's like I have no idea how to relate, so off I go.

Does anyone else have any blogging aversions?

17 comments:

Morgan said...

You've actually mentioned this before...but I hate the "Word Verification" thing. Maybe those who have it don't notice the handicap icon next to it! But I HATE HATE HATE doing them..and half the time i mess up on one little letter and have to do it over..it's just aggravating!

Jendeis said...

This is why I heart you. You totally understand the kneejerk reaction to calling anyone who's pregnant IFer or not a bitch. BTW, I don't think you're a bitch. It seems that you've gone through hell and back, so somehow that makes it OK to complain in my book.

fuentes said...

I am religious but find that I don’t like reading bible passages and what not on bloggs. The boggs I read supposed to be about ttc, pg, family life, and I know for religious people God is apart of those things (he is for me) but I guess I’m a hypocrite or something and if I want to read a bible passage I’ll pull out my copy, or look for bloggs with a religious theme.

Lilith Silvermane said...

Ahem.... I don't mind someone sneezing twice in a row.. it's more than that.. I get it from my mom, she's a tad psycho... I still *heart* her!

:)

Lilith Silvermane said...

I am the same way about religious blogs, It turns me off immediately, I try to look past it, but it's hard. I don't like preachy... however, since I'm of alternate beliefs I don't put that up on my blog. I try to keep it out for the most part, to avoid judgment.

I also hate someone that only does reviews. Yes, I do reviews, but I also do my best to put 1 or 2 personal blogs in between. Reviews tend to be a bit dull! If it's a review site, great (I have a video game review site I visit daily), but if it's a personal blog, integrate them!

MrsSpock said...

I shy away from really religious toned blogs. I'm a Pagan and it tends to turn me off. I only mention my spirituality once in a blue moon on my blog. A REALLY blue moon. Not because I shy away from its controversy, but because, well, it's not in the forefront of my thoughts. Also, if a blogger's story includes the fresh loss of a child, I tend to stay away more for the fear that they will click over and get a punch in the stomach when they read my blog with my relatively easy IF journey and posts about my son.

docgrumbles said...

Sometimes I get turned off my overly religious or political inclusions in blogs.

Oh, and as my OB assured me today, there is huge variation in when the kicks are felt.

Io said...

Bitch, (and I mean that in the most loving way) I hope you get to feel something other than a fart soon!
I hear you on the religious blog thing. I generally just can't relate. I don't get the things happen for a reason that God won't tell you bullshit, because fuck that. I don't want a god who pulls shit like this.

Sarah R said...

"One of those" (from my blog). You are so cute. I can't wait until you have your baby either! It'll be so exciting!

Do you think he will look more like Ella or more like Allie. Don't you wonder? I'm sure you do. :)

As far as the kicking goes, I didn't feel it until around 18 weeks, but it was just little squirmies at first. Then the kid wouldn't sit still. I still remember saying, "OMG, this kid is going to be hyper" because he moved way more than he was still. And he is energetic. I'll say that.

As far as blog aversions, the only thing that is weird to me is if I don't really know the person and I debate whether or not I should leave a comment. Will they think I'm a crazy stalker?

Sometimes I feel like I don't blog enough. I'm jealous of people who put new entries up every day. It makes me feel lazy.

jenn said...

I hope you get some serious one-two kicks soon!

(Oh- & oddly enough I decided last night was ~enough~ with the sleeping photos & actually heard the click then blew the hell up all over his ass! I think photos my be done for a little while... 4 shts of me passed out will suffice.)

Tigger said...

Dark background, white text. Sears my brain and I can't read it. When I click away, I still see the words on the screen for a few seconds. I can't count the number of blogs that I would have loved to read, but simply can't for that one simple reason.

I'm also with you on the "religious" blogs. I have a hard time with reading scripture passages, or people who constantly "cling to faith" for lack of a better way to put it (I just know this is all part of God's plan, etc). I think it's because I'm too jaded - yeah, we've all been there I think, but puh-lease...this is your place to spit out how you really feel, not sugar coat it in case God reads it.

Wow...that turned ranty. Sorry!

JamieD said...

I don't have anything I really shy away from. Of course, I prefer reading the blogs of not-pregnant-IFers because that is what I am. I am just a tiny bit bitchy that way.

But I didn't roll my eyes at you and shout "BITCH!" When I am pregnant (I am in an optimistic mood today) I will be in pins and needles waiting for the movement. I think that is when it would all feel real.

Melody said...

I am totally turned off by religion on blogs, particularly religious explanations for infertility, ie. god is "testing" my marriage or god has another plan for me or god doesn't think I'm ready. So what if I don't believe in your god, and I'm infertile. Is your god punishing me?

The Captain's Wife said...

Word Verification drives me batty....
Religion...well it's your own personal choice, and I choose to not read through your rants on it...(not you Nancy the WWJD bloggers), I am totally cool with "thanks god this happened" or "I prayed all week about this", but when you begin to quote passages...click!
Political blogs...can turn me off, depending on my mood and how angry I am at the state of our country at the moment.

Denise said...

People keep asking me if I'm feeling movement yet and I've gotten so frustrated by now that I generally just want to scream "I DON'T KNOW!!!!" I feel all sorts of twitches and tightenings, but they could just as easily be tendons and muscle stretching (or digestive stuff given that my stomach is probably right under my ribs now). Plus, most of the time it is in my upper abdomen and I keep thinking if it were the babies it would be lower.

I tend to have the same reaction to very religious blogs. I can overlook a post here or there that has a religious tone to it, but if it becomes constant, I just start to feel like I have nothing in common with that person.

I actually like reading the letters to the unborn child, but they usually make me cry.

The Captain's Wife said...

one more blog that I tend to steer clear of....sports.

Amanda said...

I never quit actually reading, but I just can't comment when blogs go certain places. I may have comments, but I don't want to seem like an ass, so I just save the post for a couple of weeks, then un-save it without ever commenting. But mostly it's just when people discuss topics that I have strong feelings about, but no experience.