I had to be at the hospital so early, I didn't have time to update.
Today's hpt - clearly negative. Even after just looking at it right now, no dried evap line. Yesterday's must of just been some fucked up joke.
No surprise baby for me.
And no babies for me ever again.
I'm sterile.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- We interrupt this blog to bring you my next medica...
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- I'm actually going to talk about it.
- Sorry to keep you waiting!
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- This is a bit hard. (and something very interesting)
- Awards Time.
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- You all know of this place, right?
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- "Michael Phelps' Bong Hit"
- Now it is definitely NOT funny.
- Well, now it's just funny.
- (Updated) "Have you thought about sterilization?"
- Quick update
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26 comments:
I'm glad you're okay! I've been worried about you all day...I figured you had the surgery because it had been so long, then when it took awhile I was worried some fork got thrown in your road.
Glad everything is okay! Hugs...
Glad you made it!!!
:)
Well you're not absolutely for sure sterile until a few months from now, if you've had the essure...
xx
J
Thanks for the update. (as you'll see) I've been thinking and thinking. smooches.
Glad you're OK! I hope everything went well for you in the surgery.
thank you for updating- I'm glad you are okay- well as okay as to be expected when becoming sterile...
xoxoxo
I'm glad everything went okay! Yeah I've used that same HPT and got a line like that... yes, very fucked up joke! Although when I saw that this AM I had a huge smile on my face for you!
Oh Nancy.
Big big hug.
XO
Love and more,
Pam
I hope everything went okay. Glad you are back! Hugs...
Glad you're ok!!
(((hugs)))
That's sad... but you have three beautiful children to show for your non sterile time!
I'm glad that you're OK. Sorry fate decided to play that joke on you. That had to be a serious mind-fuck.
I hope you're feeling well after your surgery!
Glad you are back (how was the anesthesia?)
I am sure you have mixed emotions right now; hope you are feeling well and look forward to hearing from you!
(((Hugs)))
((Hugs)) I am you're feeling a mixture of emotions right now. I am glad your surgery went well though.
(((((((hugs))))))) I'm glad all went well, but I'm sure you've got mixed emotions about all of this. I saw your post earlier and I have to admit, a part of me had my fingers crossed for you. Yeah...definitely a cruel joke from the HPT Gods.
Thanks for updating! It must be a very difficult thing to accept, even though you logically knew you were "done" having babies. Like people have said... mixed emotions, I'm sure. (((hugs)))
I'm back home from Ohio and I must say I about crapped myself when I saw you post earlier today. Although I was happy for you for the thought! I thought to myself I was only gone for two weeks, what the hell happened.
Anyways I'm glad everything is good and I'm glad that you are ok and doing well.
((((HUGS))))
Bitter sweet I'm sure.
xxx
I can imagine how difficult the idea is, even after all you've been through. I know I'm not having any more and am actively preventing it, but I don't know how I'd feel taking that final step.
Glad all went well--and no 11th-hour surprises to further complicate matters.
Rest up and take good care of yourself!
Glad you are ok.
I'm glad you made it through safely. I'm sure there were many mixed emotions after all you've been through.
~hugs~ Love ya... I'm not sure what I can say beyond that. Wanna drink?
~hugs~ I'm glad you're doing good! I was keeping my fingers crossed and thinking about you.
xoxo
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