I stopped at the RE's office to pick up my necklace I left at my Egg Retrieval. The nurse came out and asked me if I started my AF yet. "Nope, but I am enticing her with white panties and a sandwich."
And then she proceeds to tell me how they want me to have a nice big period with lots of hormones, shed that and then they'll build me up for a JUNE transfer.
Seriously. June.
I have the mod squad on ice, but that's where they are going to stay until summer. 6 months out of a year and I'll get two total chances. My IUI in january and the february IVF will finally come to fruition. Maybe. Remember - chances are it can still get cancelled.
How much more pitiful posts can I put up in a row? I'm beginning to not even like myself. I don't see how you guys are able to put up with me.
... Once (and still) Infertile, but still Schnarky as hell. This blog is dedicated to the daily ramblings from the mind of Nancy. It isn't about anything profound in the grand scheme of things, but it ~is~ about things in my life, schnarkiness always included. I have a second blog, listed in my profile, but the blogs will continue to remain separate.
"I'm aiming for heaven, but I'll probably wind up down in hell"
About Me
- nancy
- I am a 39 year old woman. I am the mother of two beautiful daughters and a handsome son. I am a career woman. As for my TTC world, it certainly doesn't seem like I am "infertile", but I fought for my pregnancies and my TTC/IF history is on the sidebar. I have two blogs, which are both listed in my profile. One focuses on my daily life - including IF, TTC, pregnancy, delivery and even some "children mentioned" posts. The second blog is ~soley~ posts directly about being the mother to my three children.
Belly Pics for #3 only.
Click stick figure to see the consecutive pictures from this pregnancy only.
My TTC History
- Jul 01 ~ married
- Jan 02 ~ First cycle off bcps and opk shows ovulation!
- Dec 02 ~ Went to pcp for RE referral
- Jan 03 ~ Testing commences. S/A perfect. HSG clear.
- Feb 03 ~ Lap #1. All clear.
- Apr 03 ~ Clomid cycle #1. BFN.
- May 03 ~ Clomid cycle #2. BFN.
- Jun 03 ~ Clomid cycle #3. BFN.
- Jul 03 ~ Supposed to be IUI#1, but we missed cd3 so natural cycle
- Aug 03 ~ BFP on C18.
- Apr 04 ~ Ella born.
- Oct 04 ~ decided to ttc #2 and went off minipill to see if I am ovulating. I am. Will start next month.
- Nov 04 ~ TTC#2 starts. BFP. Holy Crap. No freaking way. No way.
- Aug 05 ~ Allison born
- Oct 06 ~ IUD removed. TTC#3
- Jan 07 ~ Large cysts found.
- Feb 07 ~ Femara cyle #1
- Mar 07 ~ Started w/ RE. HSG #2 showed R tube blocked. S/A normal.
- Mar 07 ~ more cysts, up to 9cms.
- Apr 07 ~ more cysts, 3 @ 7-9cms.
- May 07 ~ IUI #1 cancelled due to more cysts
- Jun 07 ~ IUI #1 (take two) w/ Clomid. BFN.
- Jul 07 ~ HSS showed scar tissue in 70% of uterus. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome. Uterine surgery #2
- Aug 07 ~ HSG #3 showed clear tubes.
- Aug 07 ~ IUI #2 w/ Femara. BFN.
- Sept 07 ~ Monitored w/ hCG trigger. BFN.
- Oct 07 ~ HSS #2 showed scar tissue in 30% of uterus. Uterine surgery #3.
- Dec 07 ~ HSS #3 showed tiny amount of scar tissue. Uterine surgery #4.
- Jan 08 ~ HSS #4 showed clear uterus.
- Jan 08 ~ IUI #3, C16. BFN.
- Mar 08 ~ IVF #1, Transfer Cancelled due to lining. Out of 15 eggs, 9 were mature and all 9 fertilized. I have named my 9 embryos "The Mod Squad" and they are in the freezer, waiting for mommy to be ready.
- Apr/May 08 ~ FET #1. C20. 4 embryos "The Fab Four" transferred on 5/05. BFP!!! Very Low Beta (15 at 11dp3dt) but the numers continued to double every 48 hours. Told it was "most likely not viable" and later "most likely ectopic" but we beat all the odds.
- May 16, 08 ~ 11dp3dt (4w0d), beta #1: 15
- May 19, 08 ~ 14dp3dt (4w3d), beta #2: 43
- May 23, 08 ~ 18dp3dt (5w0d), beta#3: 213
- May 27, 22dp3dt (5w4d), beta #4: 1,073
- Jun 08 - Ultrasound showed one heartbeat at 7 weeks.
- Jul 08 - Had CVS testing. Chromosomes are normal and it's a BOY!! EDD: 1/23
- Aug 08 - Jan 09 ~ High risk due to: 1) Velamentous Cord Insertion, deemed biggest risk 2) Previous Placenta Accreta 3) Previous rapid degraged placenta 4) IVF alone can create weak placenta 5) AMA - Advanced Maternal Age. -- All resulting in almost 30 u/s and lots of testing, which ended up saving my life.
- Jan 09 (38w0d) ~ Karl is born! -- Crazy 3 days in hospital. Manual version to flip baby from breech to head down, Labor, Delivery, Emergency surgery due to cord detaching from placenta, Scary heart issues from losing over 40% of my blood supply, and then a blood transfusion due to the extreme loss of blood. Whew!
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- I made a half decision.
- Cancelled Again.
- Am I ~evil~?
- I met with plastic surgeon.
- Two more days.
- This makes me want to throw up.
- What is there to do? Oh yes. Wait.
- Lining update and severe jealousy.
- I can't take anymore pregnancies.
- If you love it so much, you should marry it!
- Another day, another monkey wanding.
- Happy Birthday Bean.
- No witty title available.
- Weigh in. Week 2.
- The seven habits of highly fertile people.
- I can ~see~ the hurdle. Jump Nancy, JUMP!
- What a pain in the ass.
- Oh The Places You'll Go
- I guess that makes me a moron.
- Approaching hurdle #6
- Nightmares.
- 2 more days until next hurdle.
- I've done it. I've joined
- I've been ipod-ing it today
- Never use PEN.
- I'm going to kill my husband.
- It's hard to be the 1 out of 6
- I'm really good at being non-pregnant.
- I want a baby.
- And it's back on.
- Another setback.
- FET update!
- I thought the internet was "huge".
- Weird dreams.
- I just went shopping with
- It's too soon. (updated)
- That good news fooled even me.
- I can't believe you did it!
- Transfer in 2 weeks.
- Pet Peeve venting time.
- Nothing can sum it up better.
- Things that are good about a June FET.
- My luck is bound to turn, right?
- Today was supposed to be my transfer.
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9 comments:
awwww...you luck will for sure turn! ((((hugs)))) Until you start posting about the random stalking of your neighbors or a murder you commited I will still come around. You're awesome and don't ever forget it!
Nancy I am so sorry things are not going smoothly for you. I wish there was something I could say to make things better but I know that words just can't make you feel better. I am offering a huge hug to you! I hope that nothing stands in the way of your June transfer and and you have a beautiful healthy embryo transferred to it's nice warm home for the next 9 months. I wish for nothing more than complete happiness and fulfillment in the months to come for you and your family
Lauren (L_Chelle)
Oh Nancy, I have not checked in and I have now had the chance to see you have had one hell of a doozy this week. I am so sorry you do not have the support you need and deserve at home. I cannot agree more with the idea that he seek some support and relief with a therapist. It is just so hard thinking that above everything else that you have to be the one your husband projects his stress, grief and anger on.
I wish things were going much smoother for you. See you in a few weeks with CO bloggers!
We put up with you because we love ya! And it's not "putting up" with you...it's just being there to listen to you when you need someone. You do it for others, you deserve it in return. I'm sorry..and that fucking SUCKS nuts.
Nancy we put up w/you because we care!! I hope your luck turns around and I'm sure it will. They always say bad things happen in 3's and I'm sure you've surpassed that so your due for something good!! -Jayme
Oh shit. June? What the hell is up wit April or May? Is it because June is the next IVF cycle at your clinic? I'm sorry if you've said this before.
fuck. I can only offer my hope that it only takes the next try.
Is June for definite sure? I ask because I had issues with the nurse at my clinic - she was telling me when we were getting ready for IVF that I wouldn't be able to do it until March if I did one more IUI cycle in October, where my RE and I had specifically discussed it, and January would be fine.
It *sucks* that A) you are not able to get a straight answer on this, and B) it looks like it is going to take a heck of a lot longer than you were hoping. Big hug, chica.
Dang...so sorry!
Don't you hate when they make you wait so bloody long? I can totally relate. It makes me insane!
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